livin' & kickin'

down with fever

2011-09-11T09:29:00.003+10:00

Salam,

I'm currently down with fever..or is it flu? or cold? I dont know which is the right term for my condition right now, but here's what I've been experiencing for the past 2 days;

-sore throat

-runny nose

-bad cough

It's not the worst that I had, and I really havent had a fever since so long, I dont remember when was the last time. Well, maybe Allah just wants to remind me that I could not run away from sickness, no one is immune to it. Hopefully, He will grant me good health soon. I need more motivation to face the coming week, since this week-long holiday is coming to an end, and I had so much fun that I dont want to let it go, not just yet. :(

I'll just stop here, I still need to START and FINISH my 2 weeks accounting tutorial homework, up for collection tomorrow. *amekkau, suke sgt procrastinate kan...* :'(

ps: I think I'll go out and buy an Ogalo burger later, for lunch and dinner. Lat night's chicken porridge has finished and I'm so not in the mood to cook anything today.

no idea

2011-08-07T16:45:00.002+10:00

mood: nak bersepeda.

nah, itu dia post selepas hampir setahun tak menulis. sekian.

*semoga saya lebih rajin berbasikal bila spring hampir tiba.*

malaysia ku sayang

2010-11-29T21:36:00.002+11:00

after a long break from my last post, here it goes. writing on MY own bed in MY own bedroom in MALAYSIA.

ok, so leaving Sydney was not that fun after all. Especially when it comes to leaving a very good friend behind. It was a sad, sad thing leaving a very very good friend, not knowing when will you get to meet her again. We even exchanged the bracelets that we loved the most with each other. Three of us actually, me,icha n ecah. I can put the pic up but our faces were so red and tanned after a week in Gold Coast and not to mention, the amount of tears we shed that night, and the day after. lol

You know she's a good friend when you miss her presence around you. Memories are the most expensive treasure for me.

Activities in Malaysia? Shop, makan, tgk TV, jalan2, shop lagi. Sis kata I have to curb my spending habit. Baiklah, saya akan cuba. [sila note, "cuba" ye] :]

Worries? Yes I do have one in particular. Being in Malaysia doesnt require me to walk as much as I did in Sydney. No bicycle, can use the car. Running? .....I miss it indeed..... maybe it's about tim for me to tie the shoe lace on my running shoes again. [now, that's one thing to look forward to during this holiday].

Qurban

2010-11-16T09:32:00.003+11:00

I wish every muslims Salam Eidul-Adha.

*we celebrate it today in OZ coz we follow the Saudi kingdom.*

and with that, may we all could reflect back on the real meaning of sacrifice. How far have we gone and how strong have we been? It will only take a moment to reminisce on the past and review it in a different perspective.

and to update on my daily life right now. My hands are filled with tasks that I need to finish up. Have to start packing, have my duties as the secretary for KUNSW that I need to deal with. And I'm moving out to a new house next year. Well actually I'm moving out tonight coz tomorrow I'll be going to Gold Coast (YEAY!!) and then I'll be going straight back to Malaysia. So...., yup, its kinda hectic here in my room. Its a mess, really. I'm trying to juggling the task of packing all my things into different bags, ones to Malaysia and ones to the new house. Then I'm doing my work as a secretary.

Not that I'm complaining or anything, in fact, I'm feeling really good. I'm a happy person when I'm busy. And with all these coming activities by KUNSW, I'm really revved up in doing the paper works.

Cant wait for next year though. But right now, as my final days in Sydney for the year is counting down, I'm giving it my all and looking forward to a nice, relaxing holiday in Gold Coast. [which is why I'm not planning to go to any of the theme parks]. What do you think? Will it be a waste if I dont go to the theme parks? I'm not really a theme-park person though....

how come???

2010-11-15T01:26:00.003+11:00

Now, this has got more to do with sarcasm and irony...(I just wished someone had created the word 'ironism' so that my first sentence would rhyme better) but erm...whatever.

The post should go like this----->

When I was in the study and exam period, all I wished for was for the whole exam thing to be over. So that I could go out and have fun and forget everything that has got to do with studies. [especially with macroeconomics and info system. i'm officially in a love-hate relationship with these two guys. cant help it though.] But then, when the exam's over, you got out of the exam hall and I th0ught, "Damn. Now that its over, what am I suppose to do??? Roll over all day-long in bed??? That is SOOO boring!"

But no. As all may know by now, I've already successfully spent my money on my first shopping trip after the exams which happened right after I finished my last paper. After a huge bank transactions with countless shops [the word countless is over exaggerating, really.], it go me thinking, now shopping certainly wont help my financial planning in so many ways imaginable even though it would be my favourite past time after the exams. Then I resorted in joining whatever activities that my friends would talked me into. Remember the first part where I said rolling in bed all day would be sooo boring?? Yup. I certainly didnt even had the chance to roll in bed to rest after the exams. Last night I was so tired that I could hardly sleep. Can you imagine me having trouble sleeping because I was too tired that I cant sleep. For someone who loves sleep so much, thats a huge deal.

And that's the irony! How could someone who loves sleeping so much can say that sleeping is a boring activity??! I'm so self contradicting right now. God, after only 2 hours of hearing speech by Anwar Ibrahim I'm already becoming like him! [now that's the sarcastic part of the post].

Whatever. Focusing back on the prior point that I made, I decided to resort back into shopping because I thought it's much more relaxing than playing sports and whatnot. I was wrong. For someone who LOVES shopping so much, I should have known that shopping always leads you to one shop after another. And if you're in Sydney, its one mall after another. Which results, in 6 hours of walking with approximately less than an hour of sitting down for lunch, sitting on the park to listen to the music gig, and sitting on the bus all together. Now that needs energy and money honey. A strong and independent lady like me tries to handle both but I have to admit (i'm not financially independent)---->

which leads me to another tip for future students who are going to sit for a scholarship interview----> never ever ever EVER tell the interviewers that you're independent. You want to act smart there but you'll end up being out smart by the panels themselves----> if you're so independent, why are you asking for the scholarship in the first place? A hardcore independent bloke would go overseas by himself and work part-time to support himself. Ouch, I think you just cut yourself there. [i meant that literally].

But who am I kidding? I LOVE being tired because I know I just did something productive in one day of my life. [yeah, like you cant get tired if you over-slept]---> that's sarcasm over there.

No, seriously. I'm enjoying it. The trick? New people each day. It keeps a whole brand new experience in store for you when you go out. Trust me in this one.

---->Sydney's getting hotter nowadays. Like when I sleep, I would sweat and wake up to find the fan is pointing directly at my face with a few cms away from the bed. But the air was still. It is THAT hot. No, I'm not complaining. Are you kidding me? I'm born and raised in Malaysia and if any Malaysians would have ever learned to survive anything, it would be the heat. And thats sarcasm with patriotism. And it rhymes. Great.

*ignore the messy background. we're moving out to a new house. that will be updated later*

And to add more absurdity into this post of mine, I just want to confess that I am now a peach tea junkie. I am very proud to at least deceivingly tell myself and others that peach tea is actually healthier than coke. Which is bullshit anyway. Anyway, I love this thing so much that I actually bought a 1.5l of this thing and consumed it within 2 days. Aint it great??!!

Congratulations. You just wasted like 5 minutes of your precious time reading this meaningless blog post. If this was posted on another blog, I would have muttered "stupid" and walked away being pissed off. *nah, that's over exaggerating* In fact, I've been diagnosed with toxic-niceness which tells people to "please, take advantage of me because I'm too nice." Now that's random. Coz I'm too nice to tell be sarcastic about it on my blog anyway.

HOOORAAAHHHH

2010-11-12T18:32:00.003+11:00

exam's over.

over and done with. *jumping and skipping happily*

but there's one catch though....

I no longer know what to do.

you know...before the exams, u had a mission, to strive and ace the exam.

but now since I've finished my last paper....I dont really know what there is to do in my daily schedule...

*sebelum exam, rasa malas menghantui, selepas exam, rasa bosan plak* hmph, never satisfied!

but I did enjoy myself after the exam just now....went to the city...new Westfield store with 6 levels is now open in Sydney. and me being me...ehem2....spent a lil bit on a new jeans and purse...oh i swear the purse was hauntingly saying BUY ME. I tried walking away, but I just cant. I'll be the worst ever accountant who encourages spending. At least it keeps the economy moving. :P

*happy is the heart that still feels pain*

while we are blessed with happiness, dont forget those who are less fortunate.

if we have the money to spend on ourselves, save some and spend it to help those who are in need. for the people who lost their homes due to the horrible flood in kedah and perlis. not to mention those who lost their loved ones and their shelters in Indonesia due to the volcanic eruptions.

God blessed us with so many things in life and we should at least be grateful and thankful for how lucky we are. Humanity is already here, lets give it one more chance.

friday will come. it is already friday.

2010-11-11T23:58:00.003+11:00

because it's already 12.00am when I'm writing this post.

sila baca: pembahagian masa mengikut markah untuk esok. sila jangan lari dari jadual.

scribbling is a major part of being a student.

*wow, i think my hand-writing actually looks nice in the pics*

haha

*on a second thought...if only i could snap how my hand-writing looks like when i write the actual essays during exams.*

*i like to make my examiners feel older by enforcing them to use a reading glass since a young age. coz i'm wearing one too. so it's fair n square*

final words: praying hard that my effort will pay off tomorrow, insya-Allah. HD? D? please2?

friday. come quick! but wait..

2010-11-11T11:47:00.002+11:00

So I just finished my second last paper this morning, which was Infosystem 1602. Not bad...not bad...I think I did kinda well although I know I'll lose a lot of marks for the third written answer. Had no choice, I have to answer that question or I'll be stuck with the last question which I really didnt want to answer. So, yup, I took the second question, with a very convincing answer for part (a) *i think* and a not so convincing answer for part (b). But the first written answer better give me a good mark coz I spent nearly an hour to write up the essay, 4 pages long filled with infosys jargon....not bad..not bad...

Conclusion, I'm praying hard that I'll score 70++, coz the stupid system error on blackboard wont let me check my assessment grades before I went into the exam hall. So I went into the hall with no idea whatsoever on how much is my targeted score for the final paper. Anyway, work's done, I've did my best, lets tawakkal and leave it all to God.

Now...business law...another week lecture to study on...then revise the tute problems...revise back on the draft and short-notes...revise on the sample question...yada yada..I NEED A SLEEP NOW. I'M MENTALLY TIRED AND MY EYES WEIGH LIKE TONNES>>>sekian terima kasih. untuk anda yang baik hati, doakanlah saya ye. saya pun berdoa untuk sahabat2, keluarga dan orang yang berbuat baik pada saya, insya-Allah.

p/s: tangan saya dah biru sebab dakwat pen biru tu suka melekat di tangan saya bila saya tulis banyak2. tangan saya juga agak lenguh kerana banyak menulis tadi. saya sempat melihat tangan saya dan membuat perbandingan yang mana satu lebih pucat semasa saya sedang mencari idea mahu tulis apa lagi. ternyata, tangan kanan lebih pucat. saya bukan seorang yang kidal.

when exams makes me go AGAGAGAGA!!!

2010-11-10T11:09:00.004+11:00

I've been trying to keep myself motivated to keep myself reading Infosystem and Business Law. Lets leave Business Law out of the question for a moment. I've done my part for that subject and the exam is on Friday. I need to focus on tomorrow's paper, Infosystem. There's another 5 topics left and I am soooo dead meat. Gilaka?? I cant finish the whole 5 topics in one day!!! *memang gile pun...*

Now..this is me, trying to console myself over the subject matter [eg:infosystem].

me: oh, la...the last 5 topics are just easy ones...they dont involve much on the technical side of infosystem, more about security. Plus, its not like I havent read these topics before, it was just so long ago during the semester that I just happen to forget. Skim reading would not be a problem here.

alter-ego: well, what if tomorrow's questions will be drawn out majority from the last 5 topics?

me: i dont think so. Patrick gave us the sample questions and all of them covers the first 5 topics of teh textbook. Plus, Syaza said that when she did her infosys, the questions are based from the topics given in the sample question. I guess that is how Patrick gave us the clue on which topic to cover.

conclusion: i wanna go with my first and second monologue and leave my alter-ego behind. what do you think?

final words: lets get some breakfast, make some tea, continue reading, make drafts and answer the sample questions. make drafts for the first 6 topics. make a linkage between the topics. try to remember the important terms. make self-argument. wait for 7.30, stick my a** in front of the TV to watch Glee. thats me, tengah kelam kabut takut tak sempat baca buku teks pun sempat nak tengok Glee lagi. Macam mana la aku bleh jadi student UNSW ek? Ucap terima kasih kepada mom n dad kerana memberikan genetik baik untuk otak yang bagus. alhamdulillah. sekian, terima kasih.

nota kaki

2010-11-08T09:18:00.004+11:00

My next paper is on Thursday (info system) and Friday (business law).

Heaps and tons of readings.

But things are getting on okay I guess. Not really on track but not really off track either.

Pace up is what I keep telling myself to do.

The past papers?? Well...lets just say, let bygones be bygones. It would not help me with anything either if I keep worrying about the past. Although I really want to worry about it, but cant afford to. The energy needs to be focused on the coming papers and events.

So many notes and papers needs to be written and read....wish I was still the little standard 1 kid in primary school where my mom will send me to school and carry my water bottle and school bag. Then she would kiss me on the forehead, give me a big hug and a note which she wrote translations from english to malay. :) I still remember the note very clearly. She would write things like, "One = satu, two = dua....and blue = biru...", with big round letters in a blue pen. hehe. Oh and I remembered very well my first trial debate. with my mom when I was five or six. It was newspaper article, writing something about the brunei team in the malaysia cup. Then I asked my mom, "Is Brunei a part of Malaysia?". Mom replied no. I argued, it MUST be a part of Malaysia because it was a part of the Malaysia Cup. Mom replied no, it was 'invited' to play in the Malaysia Cup. But the I said,"Why would Malaysia 'invite' Brunei to play if it wasnt a part of Malaysia?"....oh the argument went on and on...until my mom got to her boiling point and said "I knowlah! I'm the geography teacher at school and I know very well that Brunei isnt a part of Malaysia. So you listen to me." *mom got a really good point there or I was just too scared to continue on the argument*lol...kecik2 dah degil ni....haha

Anyway. Enough nostalgia for today. Need to work on the next 2 papers. *praying hard that i'll do well for these two*~you should pray too! and put in my name if you happen to be praying ya. hehe. no, i'm serious. :)

cheerios! ;]

lets fight!

2010-10-28T02:51:00.002+11:00

staring at these words

*macroeconomics*

me: u wanna pick a fight with me???!!

*total silence*

me: u really really really wanna pick a FIGHT WITH ME???!!!

*total silence*

me: oh..there's gonna be a HELL LOT of reckoning this friday! and you're going down...

down...down...down...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

oh no..ur not gonna win against me!!! no no no!! uhuh!

*shaking my head fiercely*

the macroecons textbook doesnt look really good after a long, struggling fight with me. and I won. HAHAHAHAHA. I WON!!! YESSS!!! I WON!!!!

*staring down on my textbook*

me: and guess what, imma win this battle on friday. you better watch out dear friend.

*blow my nails*

final words: fret not, my insanity is still strongly attached to my human body and soul.

mencari kasihNya

2010-10-22T11:40:00.003+11:00

Aku bukan seorang yang kuat. pernah beberapa kali dalam hidup, bila dihadapkan dengan dugaan dan cubaan, aku tersungkur. Tapi Tuhan yang maha pengampun, berkali-kali mendengar rintihan hati aku, betapa aku cuba untuk melakukan yang terbaik dan untuk jauh dari perkara dan perbuatan yang menjauhkan aku dari kasihNya. Tapi aku insan yang terlalu lemah, seringkali mengulangi kesilapan yang sama.

Ada teman yang mengingatkan, Tuhan tak hairan kenapa manusia membuat dosa, tapi Tuhan hairan kenapa manusia tak bertaubat. Besarnya kasih Rabbul Alamin kepada ciptaanNya. Tapi aku malu setiap kali menghadap Pencipta, dengan keadaan hati yang selalu tercalit dosa yang sama.

Sekarang hati ku sedih, kerana aku berpegang kuat dengan apa yang dibawa junjungan besar Muhammad s.a.w, kematian itu suatu kepastian, syurga dan neraka adalah dua pilihan. Tapi hari ni aku letakkan persoalan dua pilihan itu di tepi, apa aku sebagai insan ciptaanNya sudah cukup bersyukur dengan apa segala nikmat kurniaanNya? Sejujurnya, hati ini ingin menghadap menyembah Rabbul Alamin untuk dekat padaNya kerana itu adalah sesuatu yang menjadi tanggungjawab aku kepada Penciptaku, bukan kerana soalan syurga atau neraka. Aku ingin jadi hambaNya yang sentiasa bersyukur atas segala nikmat yang diberiNya. Kerana aku tahu, Penciptaku tak pernah memungkiri janjiNya dan tiada Tuhan yang lain yang aku sembah dan tiada tempat lain untuk aku pohon pertolongan melainkan padaNya sahaja. Sungguh, aku pegang teguh pada apa yang dibawa junjungan besar Muhammad s.a.w bahawa Allah itu Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Mengasihani. Kalau aku simpulkan semua 99sifatNya yang setakat mana manusia tahu, maka hatiku bertambah perih, betapa hinanya aku sebagai manusia ciptaanNya seringkali pergi jauh dariNya.

Aku tahu betapa tingginya kasih Pencipta kepada hamba yang sentiasa mengharapkan rahmat dan kasih dariNya kerana Dia tak akan pernah menguji hambaNya dengan sesuatu yang diluar kemampuan hambaNya. Hari ni aku pohon sekali lagi, moga Tuhan berikan aku kekuatan yang cukup untuk menjauhi perkara2 yang membawa mudarat dan membawa dosa. Benar, iblis itu ada membisikkan kejahatan ke telinga ku, tapi aku berpegang teguh pada satu2nya kitab yang benar hingga akhir zaman, Al-Quran, bahawa iblis itu adalah musuh yang nyata. Maka aku pohon sekali lagi ke hati yang kecil, supaya ingatlah dan ingatlah.

Benar, aku bukan maksum, tapi aku cuma mahu menjadi hambaNya yang baik, mensyukuri segala nikmat yang diberiNya dan berusaha mencari kasihNya, kerana itu adalah tanggungjawab aku sebagai seorang hamba kepada Penciptanya.

Aku percaya, setiap manusia pasti sentiasa rindu kepada asalnya, sedar atau tidak. Aku tahu asalku yang cuma dari tanah dan atas kasih Rabbul Alamin yang meniupkan ruh kedalam segumpal daging tak bernyawa di dalam perut ibuku, maka jadilah aku. Atas kasihNya, jadilah aku dan atas kasihNya jualah aku berjalan mencari rezeki dan menikmati apa segala nikmat kurniaanNya sepanjang perjalananku di muka bumi ini.

Dan bila ditimpa kesusahan maka ingatlah hati, Tuhan tak akan menguji hambanya dengan sesuatu yang diluar kemampuan hambanya. Ingatlah hati kerana hati selalu lupa.

Dan bila aku kembali ke asal ku nanti, aku harap aku kembali dalam sebaik-baik keadaan. kerana Tuhan menciptakan manusia dengan sebaik-baik keadaan, dan dicampak ke serendah-rendah tempat, kecuali mereka yang beriman dan mengerjakan kebajikan. Itu aku pasti, kerana aku berpegang teguh dengan kitab yang benar, Al-Quran.

final words: the post has nothing to do with the exams. i believe i'm doing quite well in the preparation for the finals, insya-Allah. just a post to remind myself, and why i think my heart feels empty right now. so, i'm paving my way back. pulang ke asal.

checkpoint

2010-10-20T01:23:00.004+11:00

this is officially the starting point where I'll lose my normal daily biological clock to the books and laptop, papers and questions.

the time of the semester where the study table is at its most glorious condition with untidied books, papers, not to mention the mangkuk bertingkat and cawans...

just now i woke up at 10, and startled myself. was it morning or night? i looked out the window and found a dark sky. night it was. since i always have the blinds closed, whether night or day, i hate sunshine these days. oh, and also the fact that my roommate is wide awake, since she's a nocturnal most of the time, it surely is night then. lol

final words: cheerios!! lets work our a** off for the finals. its the final push anyway. *kaching* ;]

tentang burung, bulan dan bintang

2010-10-19T00:38:00.003+11:00

*snapped during m-fest 2010*

kalaulah aku dapat terbang macam burung tu

tingginya sayap dia menggapai awan

takpelah

jom baring

renung ke bulan

petik bintang

masuk poket buat kenangan

kalau malam esok masih ada

kalau dan kalau

buat kacau-bilau

final words: saya sedang belajar untuk berhenti risau tentang perkara yang belum pasti, dan berusaha ke arah perkara yg sudah pasti. finals adalah suatu kepastian. mati juga adalah suatu kepastian.

pedal and 'kayuh'

2010-10-17T19:07:00.005+11:00

a milestone note for myself

I FINISHED THE SPRING CYCLE ALL THE WAY TIL THE FINISHING LINE

*clap2!!!*

*the medal and my bicycle plate*

and not to mention, the first girl in the team to make it to the finishing line, just a few minutes behind the guys who was heading the team.

*clap lagi sekali!*

hehe

-alhamdulillah-

final words: i'm sooooo gonna have a good night sleep tonight, all the way to lala land. hehe.

ingrid michaelson - you and i

2010-10-16T14:56:00.001+11:00

don't you worry, there my honey
we might not have any money
but we've got our love to pay the bills

maybe I think you're cute and funny,
maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you,
if you know what I mean

Oh, let's get rich and buy our parents homes in the South of France
let's get rich and give everybody nice sweaters
and teach them how to dance
let's get rich and build our house on a mountain
making everybody look like ants
from way up there, you and I, you and I

well you might be a bit confused
and you might be a little bit bruised
but baby how we spoon like no one else
so I will help you read those books
if you will soothe my worried looks
and we will put the lonesome on the shelf

jangan baca

2010-10-14T23:54:00.003+11:00

1. i'm bored, after watching two stupid movies, things get worse, not better.

2. so i log on to my blogger dashboard [actually i went to my blog's site first, i do that a lot, i guess i'm vain that way, who doesnt? duh...][i really dont care what you think anyway]

...and decided to change my blog design, from yellow to black. i need things to be simpler.

3. actually i need to study for my finals, but i thought, i had a long enough day today at the uni, one whole day, wow..what a day...which results in me doing thing number 1. not only did i need to study, i also have to edit the photos i snapped during TSM last week. which got me to conclude thing number 4.

4. photography needs passion, and the mood to get the passion going. no mood, no passion. no passion, no mood to edit. no mood to edit, no pictures for datuk. no pictures, no good.

5. to be more random, today is a hot day. a hot day where i'm stuck in my sweat shirt, which makes me even hotter. i mean...literally.

6. its so ironic, when i was at uni i wanted to be at home so that i can tuck into my bed, but now that i'm home, almost 7 hours ago, i find it difficult to rest, because i wanted to do something else, like watching movies, play tetris or play sudoku.

7. have i ever mentioned that my most favourite game on my ipod is sudoku? and congkak and chess? and also paper toss...you know...the game where you try to toss the paper into the bin...its a cool game.

8. my facial complexion still not improving. and to get things worse, i'll be joining the spring cycle in Sydney this sunday, where i'll have to cycle for 30km. cheerios to that! and cheerios to a darker complexion!

9. i better stop writing this post now, coz you're wasting your precious time anyway, reading this meaningless entry. which leads me to put the name of the post as 'jangan baca'. dont say i didnt warn.

final words: looking forward for istanbul tomorrow. jom makan walaupun dah pokai.

manusia bertopengkan tapir

2010-10-12T16:34:00.004+11:00

aku lah tu.

jangan tak tahu, setelah satu hari suntuk berjemur di bawah matahari semata-mata kerana menjadi photographer untuk M-Fest 2 minggu lepas, saya berjaya menghitam-putihkan muka saya.

dan sekarang, saya berjaya men"tapir"kan lagi wajah saya yang sudah kusam macam tunggul kayu ini dengan berjemur selama berhari-hari suntuk di bawah matahari semata-mata kerana menjadi photographer untuk Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin Charity Golf Event. [bapak segala panjangnya nama event dia, makanya, kami para volunteers, menyingkatkan lagi nama event itu kepada TSM, yang saya rasa agak kelakar sebab TSM itu hanyalah singkatan kepada nama Tan Sri Muhyiddin, tanpa Yassin Charity Gold Event dihujungnya. takpelah, asalkan bunyi sodap.]----[mintak maaf, gambar2 event itu tidak dapat dipublishkan di blog ini, kerana saya bekerja di bwah seorang photographer pro, abang botak, yang mementingkan confidentiality clientnya, tapi difacebook, gambar2 itu akan datang kemudian, alasan saya, kawan2 saja yang boleh melihat]

fokus husna, berbalik ke isu utama:

ini adalah masalah besar....masalah negara, masalah dunia, untuk kulit wajah saya yang saya sendiri sudah confuse dengan warna sebenarnya, putih ke? takdelah putih pun, sawo matang ke? bukan sawo matang tu macam putih kekuningan/kecoklatan? macam tak je...coklat ke? coklat kot...tapi coklat tu macam gelap sangat lah pulak, rasanya takdeklah gelap sangat....tapi setelah berjemur berhari-hari tanpa fail, sekarang memang coklatlah saya rasa. tengok! teruk tak saya, saya tau saya seorang yag indecisive, tapi takkan la sampai ke kulit muka sendiri pun saya tak boleh buat decision, warna apakah saya? tapi tak apa, kita satu malaysia, warna kulit itu tak penting. [cuma ia penting untuk self-esteem saya]

saya tak berapa percaya dengan krim pemutih muka sepeti fair and lovely mahupun garnier, kerana kawan2 saya pernah cerita, kalau pakai fair n lovely, yg kulit gelap jadi kelabu, bukan putih ye, kelabu. fair n lovely, jangan saman saya, ini hanyalah kenyataan peribadi, saya sendiri tidak pernah cuba, anda boleh cuba sendiri kalau mahu tahu yang mana satu lebih sahih.

solution saya kini, pakai mask selang sehari, dengan harapan, bukan setakat blackheads dan whiteheads yang tertanggal, sel2 mati yang membuat kulit muka saya kusam juga akan pergi. saya takdek krim, krim pelembab je yang pernah saya pakai, taruk di muka. saya loser bila sampai hal cosmetics.

final words: saya down tengok muka sendiri di cermin sekarang, berdoa dalam hati supaya kulit muka akan pulih dari sindrom topeng tapir ini. bila down, belajar untuk finals boleh mengubat hati yang lara kerana kulit kusam. itukah hikmahnya? mungkin. sekian.

facing the music

2010-10-05T09:43:00.002+11:00

My first final paper will be on the 29th of October, that leaves me with another 24 days, approximately, to study for the finals.

*okayyyy, sweating already...hyperventilating*

*you are going to be juuusssttt fine husna, just start studying by NOW and you'll be juussst FINE*

I'm trying hard to console myself. I have anxiety problems when it comes to exams. So, I've already taken some measures to REDUCE that ANXIETY by planning my study timetable on my calendar.

*not the usual timetable like we always have in schools though. 8am-12pm: study. 12pm-1pm:lunch. 1-4pm:study....pfftt..who does that anyway in uni? haha~swiping the sweat off my forehead~*

I mean just a normal monthly calendar where I will specify the date range for each subject I should study. It helps to keep my study plan on track.

Okay, the purpose of the post is to actually remind myself that I would want to study hard from now on to prepare myself for the finals, so that I wont regret it in the end. I can have long nights without proper sleep, just for the sake of this finals, and I would want it to pay off.

*remind myself that I would want everything to be in HD or D*

*which means I would have to work my a@# off for the accounting paper, blame the lousy mid-sem marks..pfftt..~geleng kepala~*

*remember2, that I would want to ace this exam because I would want to graduate with high WAM ~repeat like a chant~*

final words: okay, i'm off to do what i'm suppose to do now. studylah, duh...

floriade 2010 canberra

2010-10-04T00:29:00.004+11:00

*click on the pictures to enlarge*

malaysia festival 2010 sydney

2010-10-04T00:14:00.004+11:00

*click on the pictures to enlarge*

information system is interesting

2010-09-27T22:55:00.003+10:00

unlike accounting 1B, info sys has introduced me to a vast array of new words which I have never thought of before, seriously,......

data diddling = changing electronic before or after it is entered on computers

dumpster diving = scouring wastebaskets and dumpsters for credit card receipts and other information, then using the information illegally or selling it.

phreaking = breaking into telephone systems to make free long-distance calls or for other purposes.

piggybacking / shoulder-surfing = looking over a person's shoulder while he or she is using an ATM, cell phone, or other device in order to steal access information. [this one literally means what it meant..LOL]

salami slicing = stealing small amounts of money from large number of financial accounts.

vishing = a.k.a voice phishing; instead of asking user to visit a website, asking users to call a fake telephone number and "confirm" their account information.

final words; the next time i'm at the teller machine, i wanna look over my shoulder and say, "stop shoulder surfing me!!!' hahahaha getit getit getit??? #roll on the floor#

pandanglah Dia

2010-09-22T19:50:00.003+10:00

I have been worrying for a quite some time now.

For things that I suppose, would have mattered the most.

I worry that I wont get a full mark in the test, I worry that I would fail, I worry that I wont have enough rest, I worry that I wont be able to finish the assignment, I worry that I wont be able to get a good WAM....

and the worry never stops, it knows no END.

Then I went browsing on the Internet, and as Allah would have laid out His plans for me [He always had, and most of the time, in manners that I would have never suspected, and the outcome would be of a surprise]

I realised that I worry too much that I forget.

How life has its beauty in its simplicity. I know this is rhetoric, for I have written this line too many times before. But often still, I forget.

Am I not happy that I have food and shelter? Am I not happy that I get to learn from the best even though it is difficult? Am I not happy, that at least, I am still alive?

Yes, we worry too much, that we forget the simplest things we should have been grateful for.

For every grief I felt, there are others, whose grieves are worse then mine. When we start looking at others, then we realise, how silly are the things that we worry about here. How could we be so selfish and ignorant, yet we call ourselves educated, and we say it with pride. Shame on me. In places of war, "humanity" has no meaning. People were striped off their basic necessities.

Palestine---houses and schools were torn down. thousands of innocent children and elders are killed

People's republic of Congo---rape is a weapon of war.

Somalia---children are forced to carry firearms to fight in the war.

Ethiopia---people, mostly children, die from starvation.

and the list goes on...

and if we look hard enough, we will realise, there is no such thing as peace. because there is not a single day of peace. Looking alone is not enough, ACT. It doesnt matter where you are or what you have. Give a little and receive more than that. Happiness when you see how your kindness have put joy into the life of others. The Prophet Muhammad [peace be upon him] is no better example for this act of kindness. Embrace his teachings, and start giving. Kindness should know NO boundaries. You will know that they need your help if you look from the eye of your heart.

start giving now, it doesnt matter how much, because every little action means a thing. that is why Allah almighty, most gracious, most merciful, stated in the Quran, that every little act will be accounted for on the day of reckoning. Subhanallah. What a blessing upon humanity.

now it is up to us, to give "humanity" a chance.

http://www.peaceoneday.org/en/welcome

tanpa nama lebih baik

2010-09-13T20:36:00.002+10:00

ini bukan jatuh dari langit ketujuh lagi dah. ini sudah seperti jatuh dari satu cakarewala ke satu cakerawala yang lain, berapa banyak cakerawala di luar sana ciptaan Allah, sebanyak itulah cakerawala2 yang sudah aku jatuh dan lompat, sampailah aku jatuh gedebuk ke cakerawala bernama Bimasakti, terapung-apung di ruang vakum sampai tersedut masuk lubang hitam, sedar2, aku dah jatuh ke bumi, tertanam beratus kaki ke dalam kerak bumi. Kepanasan terlampau, aku sekarang sedang cuba merangkak naik semula ke permukaan bumi.

hiperbola terlebih hiper. saya tak boleh terima markah mid sem akaunting saya. tiba2 saya rasa sangat bodoh. *hatiku bagai dipijak-pijak melihat angka itu*

sudahlah husna.....bawak bersabar....banyakkan zikir, tenangkan hati...itu cuma mid-sem, dunia belum kiamat. usaha keras lagi untuk final. yang penting kita cuba yang terbaik. dah takdak apa2 yang perlu dikesalkan...itu cuma satu subjek, masih ada 3 subjek lain yang boleh diharapkan untuk dapat distinction dan high distinction. lihat pada yang positif. masa dah berlalu tak boleh diputar semula. istiqamah itu penting...sabar2...usaha lagi untuk yang terbaik.

final words: selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin. puasa 6 jangan lupa. saya pun belum mula lagi, mari sama2 mulakan. :D

it's here!

2010-08-18T23:22:00.002+10:00

the feeling of excitement to study is rushing all over me right now. [how much more nerdy can you get eh?] lol. no, I'm serious. DEAD SERIOUS.

when you get to know a person who's studying for honours, and she happens to be tutoring second year students at uni...and then you can still see that she's still able to have fun with the girlfriends and yet, being able to keep her studies on top of it all, all at the same time..you will get the motivation to be like that too. trust me, knowing people like these helps you a lot. ;]

after having fun at the laser tag last night, and doing nothing all day today, except for reading a few pages on Contract Law, I'm all set to jump back into the study mode again.

besides, I've realised, after doing nothing productive all day long, that the most tiring day of all days, is when you sit/sleep/slouch/wonder around, doing nothing productive, or at least something that moves that tiny neurone cells in your brain AT ALL.

Education is essential and studying keeps my brain working.

If I'm able to do just that, I've ensured myself that I havent lost my mind yet.

Final words: You should stop blog walking and get back to work too. ;] sekian...salam alaikum [peace be upon you]

motto

2010-08-16T22:55:00.003+10:00

study hard

play harder

-back of my ipod

i really need to jump back onto my table and start reading my textbooks!!!

god...., i hate these days...u know, the days when you are super-duper lazy and suddenly watching youtube and facebooking all day doesnt make you feel guilty..AT ALL

and when these days come...you know that you're in big trouble. I dont know for others, but for me, I take a longer time to actually jump back into the study mode. This lazy feeling has been lingering since I came back from Perisher.

and you know that you're in an even bigger trouble, when you know you have a test coming up next Monday, and all that you've done is download the possible questions....without answering them. DOOM is the WORD.

but still..does it really matter? I mean, to keep it constant all the time? Well, I guess its up to the individuals. I certainly cant force myself to study. Mood is essential for me to make sure I actually digest what I read and learn. If I actually forced myself without even getting to understand what I actually read or learn, then what is the point right?? I might as well, just keep this playful mischievous mood going on for a couple of days more, then I can kick-start on my studies again. I'm no robot ok. I need to feel what I learn.

Ok, so I have blurted out my guilt for the cyber world to read. A fine for me to justify my lazy mood right now.

Case justified?---YES!

Continue you-tubing and facebooking?---HELL YES!!!

adios chicas. ;]

Final words: OK, so I promise...that I'll finish my readings for Business Law tomorrow, and redo the past tutorial questions on Macroeconomics, and finish my readings on Info-systems in Business, and finish the readings for Accounting plus exercises. I AM SO HAPPY THAT I ENJOY MY STUDENT LIFE TO THE FULLEST!! [no, i'm not being sarcastic]. I dont think I cant procrastinate things as well as I do in my studies when I go out to work later on. Dont you think so?

copy paste

2010-08-16T15:01:00.001+10:00

GORE, WOLFOWITZ AND ANWAR

Dr. Mahathir Mohamad

on August 16, 2010 7:55 AM | Permalink | Comments (29) | TrackBacks (0)

1. I am merely a Malay Muslim who once led a Third World country. I therefore do not understand democratic politics, the rule of law and justice.

2. And therefore when Anwar the great statesman and my deputy in the Government and the party, challenged me, I charged him with sodomy, beat him up severely and put him in solitary confinement for years.

3. Strangely for this cruel leader, when he was earlier attacked by another deputy who then collaborated with his own political enemy to challenge me in the 1986 elections, they were not charged with sodomy or anything and thrown into jail. One was actually made a special Malaysian representative to the United Nations with Ministerial rank while the other was free to form a splinter party, collaborated with opposition parties and contested against me in 1990 and 1995. This must have been an oversight by me. In fact one of them who supported the move to overthrow me, was actually chosen by me to be Deputy Prime Minister and succeeded me as Prime Minister.

4. Anwar was jailed by the courts for sodomy and abuse of power. But of course Malaysian courts take orders from me when I was Prime Minister.

5. Could it be that his "acquittal" after I stepped down was also due to influence? God knows.

6. And then Anwar was once again charged with sodomy during the time of the PM when he was "acquitted". It is very unimaginative of the Government of the time to make the same charge. A smart Government would think up of something else more credible.

7. But this was still a brown-skinned Malay Government which just cannot be smart. Or could it be that it was actually the victim of anal rape who decided to tell things as they happened? I would like to say we should wait for the court to decide, but that can take a very long, long time or even never. The delay must be due to Malaysian courts taking orders from the Prime Minister so that Anwar would be able ot challenge the Government Party in the coming election.

8. Whatever, Malaysians must take heed of the advice by the great leaders of the United States of America, a truly democratic country which democratically exercises veto power in the United Nations, ignored the UN on Iraqi invasion, lies about Iraq's weapons of mass destruction, uses bombs and cluster bombs and depleted uranium shells and bombs, kill hundreds of thousands of innocent Afghans and Iraqis, arrests and detains just about any Muslim without trial and without benefit of any law, legalised torture of detainees, and supports internationally illegal acts by its allies. Malaysians must never reject the advice of the great leaders of the United States of America, a country dedicated to killing people so they can enjoy democratic rights.

9. Thank you Mr Gore and thank you Mr neocon Wolfowitz, Anwar's friend, adviser of Bush on the shock and awe invasion of Iraq which now enjoys so much peace and prosperity that thousands are regularly being blown to kingdom come.

10. We the Malay Muslims must democratically choose your bosom pal as leader of our country. After all he has been accused only of doing what you normally do in your great country.

Final words: I would have written the same thing myself.

ini cerita paddington street

2010-08-14T23:58:00.003+10:00

Location: Paddington street

Scene 1: We're waiting for one of our friends outside "T-Bar". Its a store which sells interesting and colourful t-shirts.

There was something written on the top of the window shop

1 t-shirt $40

2 t-shirts $70

3 t-shirts $99

Me: Aha, kami beli di darling harbour kelmarin lebih murah sii...cuma 15 dollar doang.

Icha: Iya sii...kita beli baru 15 dollar ya hushus. Ini ga kurang banyak kok..masih harga asal nya doang...

We continued to chat with Hani and Morris, talking about the t-shirts we bought at the T-Bar shop at Darling Point.

When suddenly from afar....

Scene 2: A group of fashionable chick is walking down the street, I thought they were Chinese and Caucasians..and as they approach nearer....I can hear them chattering in Indonesian....

Me: Leaned back against the wall and muttered , "Tu..Tu.." with a cheeky smile..

We all leaned back and stayed in silence.

The girls were carrying bags from the designers stores, 3-4 each..when suddenly one of them looked at the shop window...

"Ih...murah bangat siiii!!!! Lucu ya!!!"

And they walked pass by us, just like the wind...

And we all broke into a hysterical laugh...."Busettt!! Cewek2 high maintenance kayaknya!!"

Slap in the face man...

Hani: Hahahaha, tadi lo berdua bilang ga ada sale ya!! Trus cewek2 itu bilang murah bangat!!! Hahaha

Final words: A slap in the face = lesson of humility.

mix and spill

2010-08-13T21:33:00.008+10:00

[snapped in coogee. fav pic of the day] ;]

Hold fast to dreams

For if dreams die

Life is a broken-winged bird

That cannot fly.

Hold fast to dreams

For when dreams go

Life is a barren field

Frozen with snow.

-Langston Hughes-

A special friend gave this to me, then I gave it to another special friend. Now I'm writing it out for the special people who reads the blog. I have no idea why i'm being so sweet right now, most of the time I'm nasty or just blurry. Ok, not nasty, that'll be a lil bit too much. lol. ~dalam hati ada taman~ ;]

Maybe its just another reason that I want to have for not doing the assignment for info system. Dont get me wrong, I love the subject. At least, way better than management last semester. I made a vow, never, ever, ever, EVER, get a pass on any subjects after last semester. Because I will no longer have the reason of not liking the subject since every subject afterwards will be of my own choice.

The past 2 days has been very unproductive for me. Not totally unproductive, at least I managed to finish my part for the macroenomic group assignment and the group assignment for info system is on the right track. Oh, and I managed to finish my assignment for business law too!! Now, did I manage to bore you with all my assignments work?? lol :P welcome to my life honey bee! lol

But its not really all about the assignments only, I have another part which you call mischievous. I've made a vow to not spend any more money on clothing this month, after what I spent for the skinny jeans last few weeks. Not to mention the ski trip to snowy mountains. Oh, I'm trying hard to save the money I have, I do, but sometimes window shopping is TOO tempting. And when you come across something which yells out BUY ME!! you just cant resist [well i certainly cant!] solution?---leave your credit card at home when you go out. AHA!! So far, its working good. Because it has stopped me from doing all of the followings;

-buy spectacles---i need to check my eyesight. I think I have short sightedness. oh my....sign of reading too much? maybe. I kan rajin...:P

-buy a blouse---there was this one top which is begging me silently for me to buy it. but I managed to pull through.

-buy a new story book---I cant believe myself...with the tonnes of reading that I need to do every week, I still have the lust to read a book which is NOT required for my assessment marks whatsoever.

-buy new shoes---you know the kasut babi story right...now I'm in a dire need to buy a new one. coz all I have in my closet is my Nike sneakers and winter boots. cant expect me to don my blouses with the same boots all winter right?!! ok, over-reacting.

-buy new perfume---my current perfume is running low FAST. I hope it'll last until my mid-sem break, when I'll be going home for RAYA!! Yippee!! Laksa penang, i can smell you getting nearer in my dreams! ;]

-buy laptop cover for my beloved macbook. the one that I have now is 2 inch bigger, so its not really that snuggy. I fear the safety of my beloved lappy...

-buy ipad---for abah lah. I think he'll enjoy it, he used to say he wanted to buy a laptop before I flew off to OZ. But I think ipad will be more convenient for him. It's more user-friendly, and I know he only wants to use it to browse around the internet. Ever since I showed him chedet's blog while I was in holiday, he kept pestering me almost everytime he saw me in front of the computer to open up the blog. Or he'll just ask what's the latest entry's about. Abah is kinda cute that way. hehe mommy? mommy dah ada her own astro in the kitchen, NOBODY can mess it up when she's watching ZEE TV. you get the idea. lol

skinny jeans---again?? YES!! I think its going to make up an integral part of my wardrobe in the near future. hehe

wah, the list will never end lah!! solution?---save all the money, so that I can shop back in Malaysia. Its sale season in Malaysia right? And I never said that I'll stop shopping!!! Its called retail therapy lads, some things just cant be substitute with another ;]

Things to look forward to this weekend:

---bazaar ramadhan at malaysia hall

---talk session over coffee

---window shop [dont worry, I'll leave my debit card behind] ;]

---buka puasa at Lisa's n Wawa's? [thats 2 houses, I'll better check my sched]

With all these plans...I better finish off my part of the group assignment for info system by tomorrow morning.

PS: I tak sbr nak balik malaysia. Not that I'm homesick or anything, just that I miss the things that I'll be able to do back in Malaysia. Nak pegi facial, nak pegi salon, nak pegi shopping [highlight of the holiday break], nak pegi bazaar, another thing I rindu, terawikh at the mosque near my house la. Suara Imam Majmin baca surah sedap! hehe ;]

salam ramadhan

2010-08-11T15:22:00.002+10:00

Finally! The month for the cleansing of the heart, the soul, the spirit. The two things that i look forward the most; 1.solat tarawikh 2.buka puasa ^^

But then, I dont think I will be able to perform solat tarawikh in a mass as often as I would like to. But it is no excuse to not perform tarawikh at all, abah said, do it eventhough I have to do it by myself. Insya-Allah, the mission that I will strive to achieve this Ramadhan.

Have you considered him who calls the judgment a lie?
That is the one who treats the orphan with harshness,
And does not urge (others) to feed the poor.
So woe to the praying ones,
Who are unmindful of their prayers,
Who do (good) to be seen,
And withhold the necessaries of life

[surah al-Maun]

So now is the time for us to look back at our hearts and our actions. What better deeds can be done than to forgive others and help those who are in need? Insya-Allah, with the start of Ramadhan, it shall also be the start of a new attitude. Act as how a good muslim should act, with sincerity. And I pray that the good deeds we start to do this Ramadhan will continue until the next Ramadhan, and the next, and the next until the last one that we shall come upon in this life. And I pray the same for you, you, and you! [yes, you, the one who is reading the post right now] ;]

salam alaikum [peace be upon you]!

random beats boredom

2010-08-06T09:57:00.006+10:00

banyak perkara yang menarik lah.

1. bumbung balkoni rumah aku tercabut, ditiup angin yang teralu kuat pada pukul 2 pagi. bangun, tengok bumbung dah tercabut. masuk bilik, sambung tidur. esok ada kelas pagi. sekian.

2. terserempak lelaki yang tersilap masuk tandas perempuan. aku bukak pintu and dia baru nak keluar. we exchanged weird looks and i said, "This is a girl's toilet..." dia menjerit "Oh shit! oh shit! oh shit!" dan terus berlari keluar tandas.

3. ikan bakar di sydney sedap. nama kedai dia "Kaki Lima".

4. lelaki dlm suit zebra merangkak masuk ke dalam lecture business law semasa lecturer aku sedang mengajar. beberapa rakannya yang lain masuk juga, dan mereka main kejar2 sambil lecturer ku berdiri di depan, sedang cuba untuk mengajar.

5. teman tutorial aku bertanya, "Did you went to any catholic school?" "no" aku meraba2 kepala aku, tudung aku ni...aku nampak mcm sister ke? "Did you go to like..any international school?" "no" i smiled. cant you get any more random than that?lol. ka sebab english aku dah jd mcm slang oz? ntahlah.

6. pukul 11pagi di uni dah ada org mabuk, sebab its foundation day. dan ada lelaki yang pakai baju tidur perempuan yang seksi, yang jadi tak berapa seksi sebab lelaki yang pakai.

7. dah hampir 4 bulan aku pakai kasut tu, baru aku sedar, kasut itu dibuat dari kulit babi. macam mana aku sedar? sebab aku tiba2 rasa teringin nak check lagi sekali, ntah kenapa, mataku lebih tajam dr biasa malam tu, nampak 3 titik, 3 titik lagi, 3 lagi, dan 3 titik lagi. Sebab dia dah warnakan kulit tu, jadi tak nampak sangat. Apa reaksi aku, campak kasut itu ke lantai dan menjerit "Memang babi betul!!". Betullah, memamg babi pun. Malam itu berakhir dengan aku pergi ke belakang rumah, menyodok tanah, untuk bersamak.

8. Tutor aku panggil aku Abdul Hamid. Bila aku jawab soalan, dia nak tick nama, jd dia tanya, whats your name? "err....err..abdul hamid.." haih..byk gelaran aku di oz ni. tapi minggu ni, dia panggil nur, sebab aku letak kertas nama besar di dean mejaku, yang tertulis "NUR"-in capital letters.

9. dan yang paling menarik utk entry ini, i discovered that i fit into a skinny jeans. tak pernah pakai sblm ni. waist 25, bangganya aku! HAHAHAHA ini bukti, 6 bulan di oz, masih belum cukup untuk menggendutkan aku.

final words: beberapa hari ni, cuba nak jadi baik sikit. sebaik yang aku mampulah, aku pun bukannya baik sgt. haha. dah nak masuk bulan ramadhan, saudara2ku di bumi palestin bagaimana agaknya?

hindustan dan memori di belakang kepala

2010-08-01T10:45:00.003+10:00

saya suka tengok hindustan.

hindustan gangster, hindustan romantik, hindustan lawak, hindustan tragis [citer hindustan mana yg tak tragis by the way], etc, semuanya saya layan

kesimpulan: saya suka hindustan

reason: bila saya tengok hindustan [especially filem2 shah rukh], akan timbul satu rasa di deria rasa lidah saya.

apakah rasanya?--- sup sayur bendi yang dimakan bersama nasi putih dengan ikan kembung goreng yang dicecah bersama air asam.

reason: masa saya sekolah rendah dulu, yang ada di rumah cuma saya dan mak saya. mak saya minat gila kat shah rukh. saya pun suka jugak. hari2, lepas pulang sekolah, kami makan depan tv, dalam satu dulang besar, hari2 lauk yang sama, kami tonton dilwale dulhania le jayenge dan dil to pagal hai dan kuch kuch hota hai. kalau tak bendi, bayam.., kalau tak bayam, bendi...saya memang hantu bendi dan bayam...dan juga air asam. kami ulang cerita yang sama hari2, tapi kami tak pernah bosan. sampai saya dan mak saya kena pergi ke kedai cd untuk beli cd baru. sebab cd lama dah rosak, selalu sangat tengok.

sampai sekarang, mata saya boleh merangsang deria rasa untuk rasa sayur bendi yang dimakan bersama air asam bila saya melihat hindustan, walaupun shah rukh tak berlakon filem tu.

final words: balik raya nanti aku nak angkut satu hard disk penuh dgh citer hindustan. muahaha. sekian. ;]

the ratpack

2010-07-05T08:48:00.002+10:00

"a lovely way to spend an evening"

thats the tittle of the album. but of course, its just the tittle of the compilation album.

yes, I've been listening to Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin and Sammy Davis Jnr A LOT lately. Let the songs spin on itune as i retreat to my bed to read the latest book I've bought, "The Greatest Lies in History" by Alexander Canduci. Interesting book. If the stuffs in the book were not so heavy, I would have been tempted to finish the book overnight.

anyway, back to the ratpack....the songs that I favour more than others are; night train to memphis [Dean Martin], takes two to tango [Dean Martin], another spring [Sammy Davis Jnr] and....i'm in love with you [Dean Martin]. I know, no sinatra was on the list. His songs in the album were way to slow for me. Thats why. But I still enjoyed in nonetheless.

But the most interesting lyrics...I have to say, belongs to i'm in love with you. This was actually a duet with Margaret Whiting.

(DM) I'm in love with you
(DM) But you're in love with Jim (MW) I am huh-uh
(MW) Jim's in love with Joan
(MW) But Joan is gone on Slim
(DM) Slim just goes for Mae
(DM) And Mae idolizes Fred
(MW) But Fred dreams of the day that he and Kay will wed

(DM) We're on a carrousel turning at a busy pace
(MW) Well everyone's in love and no one's getting any place
(DM) What's this I hear about Kay
(MW) Oh Kay's in love with Dan
(MW) But Dan's in love with Sue
(DM) Sue says I'm her man (MW) says I'm her man
(DM) But I've got news for Sue
(DM) I'm in love with you

(DM) I went out with Sue
(DM) So Dan went back to Kay
(MW) Fred became so blue
(MW) That he went back to Mae
(DM) Then Mae got on the phone
(DM) To kind of patch things up with Slim
(MW) Slim went back to Joan
(MW) But she'd gone back to Jim
(DM) Jim figured you and Joan complicated normal life
(MW) I know what you mean
(MW) So he said goodbye and then he went back to his wife
(DM) Then when you could see that you and Jim were through
(DM) You came back to me
(DM) And I've got news for you
(Both) I'm in love with you yes I'm in love with you

----ini namanya cinta pentagon. HAHA

berlari mencari konklusi

2010-07-03T18:50:00.002+10:00

when you hit the ground,

selepas jatuh dari langit ketujuh,

baru you tahu,

tinggi rendah langit dan bumi.

[tak rhyme langsung, aku akui]

takpe, aku pun bukannya nak jadi the next zee avi or yuna. besides, i'm an accounting student, not a law student. HAHA

tak perlu menyusahkan diri mencari konklusi pun, buat penat je. penat otak, penat hati. yang penting, apa we buat is the right thing or the wrong thing. bukannya what we want to do. selama aku hidup, aku berpegang to the law of consequences. i've played my part, i've taken the blame. that is all to it. tapi konklusinya, the right or wrong decision, is the only thing that matters in the end.

btw, interesting story, aku bergaduh dengan mamat agent mat salleh ni. dia ingat aku ape? bodoh sangat? awal cakap lain, sekarang cakap lain. sudahlah nak menegakkan benang yang basah. taknak admit his fault plak tu. ugut nak blacklict nama aku? FINE. I also dont want to have anything to do with your agency anymore. If the landlord has lost 3 weeks of his rent, its because your lack of competence and inability to well-inform your clients with the property under your charge. My fault was not to blast you in the face since the start.

lemme tell you something Mr.A, you can blackmail me, i'll blackmail your agency. I have every right to not sign the contract, and every right to report you to the Fair Trade Tribunal. If this thing goes to court, and I win, You pay the damages.

aku pun tak hengen nak deal anything with your agency ever again, if this is the way you work. dahla dr awal, org2 lain yg uruskan kami. false threat, that is what i call it. nak ugut aku, mcm aku takut. Oz free contry, agency lain pun semua bersaing dgn agency ko, takdek masa nak lyn bende2 kecik mcm ni. In the end, money does all the talking.

btw, i didnt really say all that to his face, malas nak memanjangkan perkelahian kami, i said a simple fine, and he said a simple goodbye.

anyway, a very good experience. taught me to more careful with people who call themselves traders. You never know what they hide up their sleeves. But I'll tell you this, the next time around, I'll be ready with a bullet-proof jacket and an AK-47 of my own opinions and words.

thank you very much.

shutter

2010-06-20T02:37:00.004+10:00

[ferry to manly]

dalam 30saat, byk perkara menarik yang boleh dilihat. 30saat dr atas feri, melihat lampu2 dari rumah di tepi pantai. 30saat barangkali terlalu cepat, untuk didalami, betapa keindahan dalam kehidupan harian kita yang diciptakan tuhan adalah perkara2 ringkas yang selalu kita abaikan nilainya.

30saat terlalu pantas, atau barangkali 30saat terlalu lambat?

post-exam [disaat sy gembira]

2010-06-19T08:21:00.003+10:00

saya gembira baru selesai finals semalam.

tapi disaat saya gembira, ada orang berduka.

Al-Fatihah buat arwah Afique Nordin, junior saya di SBPIT dulu. Saya baru dapat berita sedih ni dr teman td. Kalau ada yang mengenali keluarga arwah, sampaikan salam takziah saya.

Rasanya baru hari tu Afique beri komen di wall fb saya.

wh.. haha... betul jugak..
saya memang selalu kesengalan.. sori eh...
tapi kalau tak tanya akak.. sampai bila pun saya segan hidup mati tak mau nak bercakap dengan akak... peace!

Saya tak sangka rupa2nya arwah dah nak pergi. Innalillah....hari ni saya insaf, arwah dah mengingatkan saya yang ajal maut datang dengan tiba2. Umur kesihatan, bukan halangan.

pre-exam

2010-06-07T09:41:00.002+10:00

study week is the best.

a dose of my daily news at the backyard. cup of tea. enjoying the sun with a touch of cold wind blowing at my face.

its the best coz mondays still feel like sundays.

the next post will be post-exam.

you get the message.

copy and paste

2010-06-05T11:21:00.003+10:00

"There was a lot of blood in the stairwells and then the sound of ammunition hitting metal changed again..."
June 5, 2010

Israeli commandos are met by angry protesters wielding weapons. Photo: Kate Geraghty

Mustafa Ahmet, a 33-year-old Londoner, is irreverent as he recollects events. Having completed his ablutions, he joined a big group engaged in morning prayers on the aft deck of the Mavi Marmara as it pushed south in the Mediterranean. But then a cry went up - "They're here! They're here!"

''They'' were Israeli commandos coming alongside the Turkish passenger ferry in their assault craft. But the imam leading the prayers was unmoved. Instead of cutting proceedings short, he seemed to go on forever. As Ahmet observed the commandos' arrival, "it was like a scary movie - their helmets were shiny, the sea was shiny and battleships sat off on either side. But the imam just kept on, holding us in position - it was bonkers."

Elsewhere, the ship was being prepared - people were distributing lifejackets and taking up positions on the rails. Others were preparing to throw Israeli sound bombs and tear gas canisters back to where they came from. Groups had been rostered through the night, to sleep or be at the ready, and electric angle-grinders were brought in - to cut steel bars from the lifeboat bays along the main decks.

The photographs that got away ... Israeli commandos board the Mavi Marmar.Photo: Kate Geraghty

Despite thoughts of what might lie ahead, there was good humour. Matthias Gardel, a key figure in the Swedish delegation, was getting used to his lifejacket, unaware that even though it was 3am back home, his 12-year-old daughter was out of bed and watching a live-feed video from the ship on the Free Gaza Movement's website. Seeing him in the video, she shot him an email: "Dad, take it off - you look ridiculous." To which he fired back: "It's past your bedtime."

Ahmet was perplexed. "We were a convoy of peace. But the Israeli choppers overhead, the smoke grenades … all the screaming, all the noise. People were running all ways and there was blood everywhere. But before we could do anything it was all over."

But it was not all over. Two days before the Israeli assault - in which nine activists were killed by Israeli gunfire and up to 30 more wounded - the bullet-headed Bulent Yildirim, head of the Turkish non-government relief agency IHH, which in effect ran the flotilla, did an interview with the Herald aboard the Mavi Marmara.

He explained that Israel could not afford to pay the price of the disaster that he confidently predicted the Jewish state would make in its efforts to intercept the convoy.

Failure would add to the litany - the Gaza war and the Goldstone report; the Hamas assassination in Dubai and world anger over the abuse of the passports of several nations, including Australia. Now there was this high-seas venture on the eve of a meeting between President Barack Obama and the Israeli Prime Minister, Benjamin Netanyahu, which was supposed to dilute the bad blood generated by the recent announcement of settlement expansion while the US Vice-President, Joe Biden, was in Israel.

It has been a spectacular week in the Mediterranean, with the Israeli government being the butt of domestic and international criticism for a botched mission against an unarmed, humanitarian convoy. Inevitably, there will be an inquiry - domestic or international; perhaps a mix of the two.

European diplomats in Tel Aviv openly scoffed at the government's claim that the flotilla organisers had ties to al-Qaeda. One told the Herald that if such a claim was the government's best opening shot, then it had a serious credibility problem.

Each side is documenting its case against the other. The flotilla organisers accuse the Netanyahu government of hijacking their vessels in international waters - killing and wounding in the process; of then taking almost 700 humanitarians and peace activists prisoner and forcibly taking them to Israel - and then charging them with illegal entry to the country. There will be hundreds of witnesses.

But, at an inquiry, the organisers will face government allegations that steel bars were used to beat troops; that weapons confiscated from captured commandos may have been used against their comrades.

The threads of an Israeli case, being leaked selectively in the Israeli media, argue that 60 to 100 ''hard-core'' activists had been embedded on the Mavi Marmara. They included Turks, Afghans, Yemenis and an Eritrean, experienced in hand-to-hand fighting.

Yesterday, the Israeli navy claimed three commandos had been dragged unconscious into one of the ship's halls ''for several minutes'' before regaining consciousness and escaping. It was not clear whether any of them were among three commandos who the activists on board the Mavi Marmara have said were beaten, then sheltered and given medical treatment.

However, the flotilla crisis is not just about Israel. The virtual takeover of what was a coalition of groups from a dozen countries by Turkish non-government organisations plays into regional politics.

Long an Israeli ally, Turkey is flexing its muscles regionally, bonding with Syria, Iran, Iraq, Qatar and Hamas - and at the same time awkwardly exposing the Arab world's about-faces on the Palestinian cause and, by its demonstrable actions, almost shaming them to do more.

Tucked in under all this is Washington's role in the region. The rest of the world was quick to criticise Israel in the aftermath of the flotilla fiasco but the Obama White House lamely called for an Israeli inquiry, the kind of response that placates Israel but erodes US credibility in the region.

Some on the ship thought the Israelis did not put enough into their opening shots.

Espen Goffeng, a Norwegian, said: "I looked over the rail and saw the zodiacs. It seemed hopeless for the Israelis - they tried to lock on their grappling hooks but they were hit by the fire hoses and their own projectiles going back to them."

He wondered if the boats had been a decoy to draw passengers to the rails while helicopters were used to land Israeli commandos higher on the ship. But that proved difficult, too, with the first two loads of chopper-borne commandos captured by the activists.

"The first ammunition I heard striking the ship sounded like paint balls,'' Goffeng said. "But some people said there had to be glass in them, because of the wounds they caused. There was a lot of blood in the stairwells and then the sound of the ammunition hitting metal changed again - I decided that was the live ammunition. People were yelling, 'Live ammo! Live ammo!'"

He said people in the television broadcast area on the aft deck were being targeted.

"I helped to carry one of the dead down to the second deck and as I returned a man who had been shot in the leg was being carried down. And when I moved to the press room, one of the men who worked there was dead, with a hole in his forehead and half his head missing.

''Then there was an announcement on the PA system telling us, 'Keep calm; it's over … they have taken the ship and we have lost.'"

Soon after, Israeli soldiers smashed the doors to the press room, the Herald was told, and then called the media workers forward one at a time. "They searched us," said a cameraman who had unpicked the waistband of his underpants sufficiently to create mini-pockets in which he successfully secreted most of his camera's discs - a strip-search revealed just one. ''They took cell phones and hard drives … and anything else that was capable of capturing or storing images.''

On the open decks and in the saloons lower in the ship, conditions were far less pleasant than the press room.

Gardel, the Swede with the fashion-conscious daughter, complained of people being forced to kneel for hours on the open deck area where prayers were held. An Israeli helicopter hovered constantly, its downdraft spraying the prisoners with wind and water, in the circumstances a freezing combination. "Keeping the choppers there seemed to be deliberate, as though they wanted to enfeeble us by holding us in such unpleasant conditions," he said.

People were not allowed to go to the lavatories - they were made to soil their clothes. Gardel was especially horrified by witnessing the experience of a badly wounded man in his late 50s, who the Israeli troops forced to remain on the open deck. "Suddenly, his right eye exploded in a gush of blood - and a blob of something fell out of it."

The Israeli troops had come prepared. The Canadian activist Kevin Neish found a booklet which he believed had been dropped by one of the Israelis - it contained images of the key leaders, including Yildirim and the nerves-of-steel Palestinian woman who headed the Free Gaza Movement, Huwaida Arraf, a 34-year-old lawyer.

On being off-loaded at Ashdod, Arraf was last seen by theHerald being frogmarched away from the detainee processing centre where her activist confreres were put through a chaotic maze of bureaucratic and security checkpoints.

By the time the ship reached Ashdod, the passengers complained that most of their cases and other baggage had been strewn on the inside decks.

There was an infectious camaraderie among the protesters on the flotilla - bound by politics, prayer and song, it was a finishing school for almost 700 new and articulate ambassadors from dozens of countries for the Palestinian cause. And the Netanyahu government has given them a story to tell. As with Mossad's assassination of a Hamas operative in Dubai in January, halting the Free Gaza Flotilla was regarded as a tactical success that, in hindsight, appears to have been a strategic disaster. The cost to Israel's international credibility and legitimacy is great.

And these new advocates for Palestine are going home prepared - many of the women prisoners were observed recording detailed accounts of their experience - with timelines and explanatory graphics.

Launching into their spiel back home, they will be better received than they might have been last week because of the tenor of the international trenchant criticism of Israel. The images broadcast around the world, despite Israel's best efforts, dovetailed with the colourful rhetoric of the likes of Anne Jones, a former American diplomat and US Army colonel who cut through efforts by some diplomats to find words with precise legal meanings to describe what Israel had perpetrated. "The Israel Defence Forces acted as pirates in shooting at us and stealing our ships in international waters," she told the Herald. "They kidnapped us and brought us to Israel; they arrested and imprisoned us; they paraded us before cameras in violation of the Geneva Conventions.''

Jerry Campbell awoke at 4am to attend dawn prayers but she had hardly bowed her head before she was dragged off to a nursing station to help treat four gunshot victims. Worse was in store for this naif from Queensland's Gold Coast - "I looked up as I was caring for a wounded Indonesian and saw my husband being carried in." That was Ahmed Luqman Talib, 20, who had been shot in the leg. She cut his blood-soaked clothing away but then followed his instructions to tend to others. "I'm OK," he told her.

She lost count of the number and nationalities of those she tended to - "I saw two men die out there … the floor was covered in blood and the IV units were tied to the ceiling with bandages."

Campbell went to and from her husband, who seemed to be deteriorating. "One man's stomach was opened - his intestines were out and the doctor reached inside and pulled out some bullets, before pushing everything back in and wrapping him up," she said. "I don't know if he survived."

Late on the second day in detention, Israeli officials showed 45-year-old Gigdem Topcuoghe, a Turkish woman, a picture of her dead husband - she became catatonic. At the Ela Prison in Beersheva, she recounted to her fellow inmate, the Heraldphotographer Kate Geraghty, how during the attack on the Mavi Marmara she had found her husband on the floor. Shot in the forehead, he was bleeding from his mouth and nose.

"I think of first aid - I need to help him. I checked his breathing … he was bleeding faster. I gave him some water and started praying for him - I held him in my arms. He wasn't conscious - I held him tight, but I realised he was gone when he didn't react in any way, but my husband is not dead - he will live with and among us."

Several witnesses have recounted in awe how Topcuoghe accepted condolences briefly - before leaving her husband's body to throw herself into helping the injured.

Later in Israeli detention, the new widow addressed her tearful friends, turning to the state of Israel. Describing the assault on the Mavi Marmara as inhuman, she urged Allah to show the people of Israel the right path, but added: "May they face more cruelty than we have and when this happens we'll be there to help them - and to take humanitarian aid to them, just like centuries back when the Ottoman sultan sent aid and ships to rescue the Jews from Spanish cruelty …"

Brief as it was, time spent inside the Israeli apparatus was revealing. Whenever the flotilla prisoners were processed, security and other workers gathered to gawp - frequently producing mobile phones to shoot happy snaps of themselves in front of the prisoners.

As a big group of men - your correspondent included - waited in Block 5 at the Ela Prison at Beersheva for a bus to Ben Gurion Airport for deportation on Wednesday, a big group of security cadets was wheeled in to stare in wonderment - licking ice-creams as they did - even as a diabetic among the prisoners collapsed.

They were looking at the prisoners, but the prisoners were looking at them and their more senior colleagues who, among themselves, constantly displayed a brotherhood that seemed to cut across formal institutional structures.

Several Europeans were distressed by the clear distinction the Israelis made between their ''white'' and ''brown'' prisoners.

The Norwegian activist Randi Kjos, a woman of some refinement, was genuinely shocked by what she observed. "They treated us with hatred - the old were made to kneel for long periods and women had to sit with their arms crossed. Some of the wounded were naked to the waist … many were in shock.

"Palestinians and Arabs were treated very differently to Europeans or Westerners. Palestinians who asked for anything were belted, pushed around or treated with contempt. People warned me of the hatred I would see - but still, I was shocked."

The Norwegian observed that many of the women prisoners were denied a phone call on the grounds that a functioning telephone ''was broken''' Others were furious on behalf of many Turkish women who were denied a call home because they could not satisfy their guards' demand that they converse in English.

At Ela Prison it quickly became clear that the guards were under strict instructions not to inflict physical violence on the prisoners. In a system that has thrown up a steady stream of human rights reports on abuse, the Arab prisoners quickly realised that here was a rare occasion on which they were almost untouchable. In the circumstances, it was inevitable that the detainees would taunt the guards. "We're all Palestinians," one of the prisoners delighted in telling an officer, over and over; while another guard became visibly upset when one of the prisoners told him, when he already was upset about another matter: "You're not really cut out for this job - you should have been a schoolteacher."

Whenever a prison officer clenched his fist in such exchanges, a colleague would move in and take him away.

But amidst much taunting by prisoners, the refusal to lash out could last only for so long and at the airport a brawl erupted between deportees and their keepers, with several of the activists getting on the planes bruised and banged-up. And as they left a detention system in which some had been subjected to more than half-a-dozen body searches, many were still subject to a humiliating, painfully slow strip-search by smirking airport staff as they quit the country.

At the airport it became clear that the Israeli security forces could keep themselves on a leash only for so long.

As the Israelis continued to hold Yildirim, the head of the Turkish agency, until late into Wednesday night, a group of 15 detainees still being processed through the airport staged a protest when they observed Yildirim being put in a cell - "so the security guys just attacked us", said Mohammed Bounoua, an Algerian who complained that he had been beaten three times during less than 72 hours in Israeli custody.

The ice-cream-licking cadets were seen late in the day at the airport - roughly dragging a deportee down a flight of stairs, after which they then celebrated with high-fives, back-slapping and smiling.

The 10-hour wait on the Ben Gurion tarmac and then the late-night flight to Istanbul were joyous.

Three Turkish aircraft were parked adjacent to Terminal 1 and, as the Israeli authorities processed passengers at snail's pace, each arrival was welcomed onto the aircraft with clapping, cheering, crying. There was a festive, party mood as friends were reunited. There were pensive tears for those waiting for husbands, siblings, friends who had not been seen for days.

After several hours on the tarmac, the pilot announced that the Turkish Prime Minister, Recep Tayyip Erdogan, had insisted that none of the aircraft would leave until all the Turkish activists and the bodies of the dead had been loaded.

There were bursts of song. One in particular was a chant of praise for the Turkish leader and the Damascus-based head of Hamas, Khalid Mishal, the refrain to which was: "Peace and blessings be upon Muhammad."

Sailing south towards Gaza last week, hopping between the boats in the flotilla, I wondered whether anyone in the Israeli establishment would have the smarts and influence to draft a response more substantive than the setting to sea of the Tel Aviv chardonnay set, which was back in the marina before sunset.

What if Israeli ships met the flotilla at the edge of the Gaza exclusion zone and escorted it to Gaza City, then stood back as the locals offloaded its 10,000 tonnes of emergency supplies? Israel could have announced an easing or even an abandonment of the Gaza blockade and instead found other ways to deal with its security concerns.

It would have stuck in Netanyahu's craw for a few days but the boil of a failed policy would have been lanced, and there would be no need for further flotillas to cause bloodletting at sea. Instead, Israel is keeping the blockade and the Prime Minister and his ministers are not sure what sort of inquiry should investigate the flotilla disaster.

-taken from the sydney morning herald online.

Final words: I'll cut it short. Who is the terrorist again? Who is the victim again? Who is the racist again?

martyrdom=jihad=humanity

2010-06-04T20:41:00.002+10:00

taken from the sydney herald online;

'Some sought martyrdom'

JERUSALEM: A hard core of 40 Turkish militants on the Mavi Marmara was responsible for the violence that led to nine deaths and dozens of injuries on the flotilla taking aid to Gaza, Israel claimed yesterday.

The allegation came as Turkish newspapers reported that three of the four Turks killed in the onslaught had declared their readiness to become martyrs.

''I am going to be a martyr. I dreamt about it,'' Ali Haider Banjinin, 39, from Kurdistan, told his family before leaving to join the flotilla, according to one report.

The brother-in-law of retired engineer Ibrahim Bilgen, 61, told another paper that ''martyrdom suited him very much. Allah gave him a death he desired.''

A third Turkish casualty, Ali Akbar Yertilmis, a father of four from Ankara, had ''dreamt of becoming a martyr'', a friend was quoted as saying.

''Roughly 40 people on board were jihadis who came for violence,'' an Israeli official said. ''They were preparing to attack, to kill and to be killed.''

The source would not confirm a report in Israel's Yedioth Ahronoth that some of those on board might have had connections with al-Qaeda.

my words:

What the Israeli media have been doing and is doing; creating the misconceptions about the word "martyrdom" and "jihad". As credible journalists, they should have done thorough research on their allegations, especially when claiming it as facts. If they had done their work right, they should have known better than associate jihad with terrorism.

If their intentions were pure, they would deviate themselves from scepticism that jihad is the same as "suicide bombing", whatmore the 9/11. If our intentions were pure enough, we could have clearly seen that these incidents are happening because so many people were already misguided in their understanding of the word jihad. Muslims around the world are now seen as terrorist because of these misconceptions.

Jihad is NOT suicide bombing. Jihad is NOT killing innocent people. Jihad is NOT terrorism.

Jihad IS gaining knowledge so that we can help others in need with the knowledge we have. Jihad IS standing against what is wrong, when the helpless were wronged. Jihad IS helping the poor. Jihad IS all there is to humanity. If what you are doing is to help mankind live a better life, THAT is jihad.

Jihad is to give medical aids to those in needs. Jihad is to stand in front of a house, when a bulldozer is about to bulldoze an innocent man's house. Jihad is to teach kids whose schools were torn apart by war.

TERRORISM is killing innocent children and old people. TERRORISM is destroying a helpless man's house when you know he has nowhere to go. TERRORISM is denying medical aids to those in needs. TERRORISM is destroying a child's future by destroying their schools and homes. TERRORISM is when you attack and kill innocent people who are defenceless.

These Turkish men went onto the flotilla with intentions to deliver aids to the people in Gaza whose access to the outside has been denied by the Israeli soldiers. These men said Jihad as it is when they were ready to die in order to deliver these aids for humanity to the people of Gaza.

If the Israeli media had anything right in their news, it would be this ;

"They were preparing to attack, to kill and to be killed.''

Were they ready to attack? Did they had pistols and bombs with them? Oh wait, they had medical supplies for the war victims in Gaza. Yes, they were ready to be killed, and they did got killed.

Final words: Who is the terrorist now?

Salamalaikum = PEACE be upon you.

i was there

2010-06-02T07:41:00.005+10:00

and so we chanted

free, free Palestine!

down,down Israel!

free, free Palestine!

shame, shame Israel!

a muslim, a human too

2010-06-01T01:09:00.002+10:00

I need not talk about the recent attack on the flotilla carrying humanitarian aid to Gaza.

It was international waters, yet they claimed it their own. The same as they would claim Gaza as their own.

It was claimed that the passengers were carrying weapons? I saw the videos of the marines attacking the passengers on board, now I would like to see the evidence if any weapons were actually on board the flotilla. Isnt it cowardly of them to attack people who were actually defenceless? I wouldnt be surprised if Israel launched bombs on civilians.

It may be a cliche' because I'm a muslim, against the attack. But even a non-muslim nation like France commented that there are no justification of what Israel had done to the flotilla and its passengers.

I am a muslim, and a human too. So I speak as a citizen of the world, and also a muslim; by no means, such an attack, did by Israel can be accepted.

final words: if this is civilisation, its the epitome of failure.

modern literature

2010-05-29T10:41:00.001+10:00

Modern literature as I would define it, in today's novels and movies, well, most of them, are total crap.

Antagonist, protagonist,plot layout, themes, and whatever you may add in, are all the same. Cliche at its epitome. Without having to watch or read it, I can already know what is going to happen, how it's going to end. None of the plots are a challenge to the mind anymore. What Hollywood have done, mostly to the world of entertainment and may I say literature [Hollywood movies itself have mostly come from a paperback in the bookstore], is that they have reduced the value and pleasure one may gain from the modern form of literature and entertainment.

The bad guys are always the same, the good guys are always the same, they have the same characters, the same looks, the same attitudes, even the same sort of clothing.

If it does not challenge my intellectual ability, its boredom. If I laugh, it is simply a stupid movie. Why would I mind watching any of them then? Because, they sell it by putting great actors and actresses in it. Yes, they can have Angelina Jolie playing agent Salt, and RobPat playing a good-looking vampire. But in the end, after a while, most of the part that I remember from a movie was when the actions are the best, when are the actors at their most beautiful etc.

Do I actually value the real story line? No. Why? None of it was actually worth watching if you want a good literature.

I am angry. I want something that I can actually put infinite value to the story line as it would affect how I think and feel. After mentioning this, I come to realize not all movies are total crap. Well, some of them are pretty good actually. I enjoyed Frost/Nixon, Sicko, American Gangster, to mention some. These are the movies that are actually worth watching. They challenge me intellectually, they gave me new insights to worldly stuffs, politics, life, etc. They may not be a blockbuster movie, but they value the work of literature more than any of the best-selling movies.

I have stopped watching love movies and movies that adapted from best-selling novels. They have bored me to my limit, to the extent I can no longer have a reservation price to most of them. I have also come to realize that, most of the movies that I value, actually come from the rental stores, most of the movies were not even up on the billboard. But they were much better, and they worth more to me.

Move aside Eclipse, make way for Wit. What is Wit? A movie about an English professor, dying from ovarian cancer. Its not new. But it was way better for me and my time. Want a love story? watch Under the Tuscan Sun. Want a family movie? Watch Little Miss Sunshine. Want action? Watch Kingdom of Heaven.

But what's best? Michael Moore's movies. Nobody does documentaries better than this chap. No joking.

In the end, maybe I should become a movie director, show these Hollywood lads how to make a real movie with a real story line. But I wouldnt want to that would I? Because I wouldnt want to have to dress up to attend the Oscar and give the most memorable Oscar speech of all time.

Laugh.Out.Loud. and I mean it.

its not me, its R

2010-05-28T13:27:00.002+10:00

location: stock market, the pavilion cafeteria, UNSW

time: lunch

characters: me, R, cashier girl

R and me are having lunch at the Stock Market. Best soup and salad provider I've ever been to.

What are we planning to eat? Soup.

What soup are we planning to eat?

Me = minestrone

R = best ever chicken soup.

Yes, it is called the best-ever chicken soup on the menu.

Me steps aside for R to order.

Cashier girl [looks at R] : You're the one with the chicken soup?

R [without stopping to think] : No2. I want the best-ever chicken soup. [points at the menu board]

Silence for a moment.

Cashier girl [looks confused] : Yeah....thats the chicken soup right?

R [just realized] : erm...OH!!! yeah2! the chicken soup.

Me starts to giggle...and

we all broke into a laughter. a big one.

the end.

dalam

2010-04-22T08:53:00.002+10:00

"Dijadikan terasa indah dalam pandangan manusia

cinta terhadap apa yang diinginkan

berupa perempuan-perempuan, anak-anak,

harta benda yang bertumpuk dalam bentuk emas dan perak,

kuda pilihan, haiwan ternakan dan sawah ladang.

Itulah kesenangan hidup di dunia,

dan di sisi Allah-lah tempat kembali yang baik."

Ali 'Imran-ayat 14

Aku berjalan dan aku dengar dan aku lihat

Dan aku baca dan aku pelajari

Maka aku rasai dan dalami

Aku lihat hari ini dan semakin jelas

Kecantikan dan kesenangan itu disenangi kerana itu fitrah manusia.

Sebaik-baik ciptaan yang diciptakan Tuhan.

Dan aku konklusikan, bahawa fitrah itu sudah semulajadi kejadiannya seperti yang diciptakan Tuhan,

Maka aku tidak rasa bersalah pabila aku senang melihat perkara itu, dan tidak rasa bersalah pabila aku menginginkan yang itu.

Hari ni aku sedar lagi

Yang aku sebagai manusia, seringkali terlupa

Untuk melihat keindahan yang disenangi itu bersama ingatan kepada Tuhan.

Apa aku lupa yang tersirat di sebalik setiap kesenangan dan keindahan yang diciptakan Tuhan,

menjadi fitrahku,

adalah erti tersirat yang lebih indah dan cantik itu adalah Tuhan jua, yang sudah dimaterikan dalam zat-Nya sebagai Rabbul Alamin.

Jadi aku dalami lagi

dan aku rasa rendah diri lagi

apalah kecantikan yang aku ada, aku rasai, dan yang aku lihat

pabila teringat yang tersirat, Tuhan yang mencipta.

Jadi hari ini, aku mahu sujudku, menjadi lebih bermakna dari hari2 yang sebelum.

Aku dengar lagu2, dan hari ini, favoritku;

Dalam- M nasir

Jika kita tak mahu melihat

Dalam diri yang tersirat

Kita akan dizalimi

Mainan dan muslihat

Jika kita terusan berserah

Pahala akhirnya menjadi dosa

Pabila kecewa merempat ke jiwa

Kita jatuh tak percaya

Dalam tersimpan jawapan

Dalam satu kebenaran

Dalam diangan2kan

Dalam tersimpan jawapan

Kemana arah kau hadapkan rindumu

Kesana cinta asli yang menyambutmu

Biar kau kirim ke sempadan khayalmu

Dalam tersimpan harapan

Dalam satu kekuatan

Dalam didamba-dambakan

Dalam tersimpan harapan

20 tahun hidup, dan aku mahu belajar untuk melihat dunia dari dalam yang tersirat.

Apa Dah Jadi - Tan Sri Dato' SM Salim (HD/Karaoke/HiFiDualAudio)

2010-04-20T08:32:00.000+10:00

teringat naik kete daddy dulu2 mesti dengar. HAHA. tapi aku mmg suke pon lagu nih. hidup sm salim!! lol

hitam putih itu mudah

2010-04-18T22:08:00.002+10:00

2010-04-17T01:43:00.002+10:00

i'm lazy

one lazy bum, i am

no doubt, i agree

i like working last minute

last minute work is, for me, the best way to get the best result

fret not

its only for assignments

i make sure to study and learn the new things asap, at least, till before tutes

i dont mind watching other people working hard

i feel happy for them, as long they feel happy

dont be angry

its just the way i am

this is how i work

main point is?

to finish my work

when? where?

doesnt matter to me

mood is a very vital part in my study hours

mood results in focus

if i was such a hardworking person, and dont mind having no mood to do my tasks,

i would have,

sticked with my last major,

but i changed, didnt i?

because it didnt worked with my style of working

plus, i dont have the heart for that area of study

plain simple

again, life is about us giving our best at each level of experience.

and the heart, is a very powerful thing.

ada

2010-04-13T19:20:00.001+10:00

Ribut datang memperkosa
Sesak nyawa dalam jiwa
Bila roti kering
Jalan pulang
Yang kau fikirkan
Habis dilarikan
Habis dilarikan mergastua

Dalam kecewa
Dihimpit rasa
Lapar dan dahaga
Sajian susu ikan merah
Suara pengalaman
Mendamaikan
Tanji gelora yang sempat singgah

Kau hilang pertimbangan untuk pastikan
Apakah kau sedar atau dilamun khayalan

Dalam hutan
Ada taman
Dan dalam taman
Ada puterinya
Dalam baju
Ada cinta
Dan dalam cinta
Ada segala-galanya
Dalam awan
Ada hujan
Dan dalam hujan
Ada lautan
Dalam aku
Ada dia
Dan dalam dia
Ada kita ada semua

more is the word

2010-04-12T23:58:00.002+10:00

i feel like a day is too short.

i want to play more.

walk more.

cycle more.

learn more.

see things more.

say more.

i feel like life is too short.

i pray, everyday, that God will show me the best way and be with me in every single step.

i want to do more things, feel more, taste more. i want to live.

i feel like i have so much to give, yet i've gave so little so far.

i want to make it up, for myself and for the people around me.

i've never felt so hungry for life before.

this urge makes me want to live life more than i did before, and to help others to live.

so i pray, that God will give me the time, the opportunity to live, and share.

i feel that the world that God has created is too beautiful and is filled with so many life, that it is up to us, to discover and help others to see, how beautiful it can be.

what we do today determines what we will be tomorrow. this life, the afterlife. and i still pray to God.

final words: alhamdulillah, eyes wide open.

2010-04-08T10:22:00.003+10:00

i woke up this morning to the wind, blowing over my face.

nice, cool, autumn wind. thank you very much.

i woke up, and i felt the urge to get onto my bike, to cycle all the way down the coastline from coogee to bondi.

planning on moving at 12pm.

i missed my bike dearly after i left it to go to canberra the last few days. payback time.

so, i'll be bringing my blue backpack, with my blue bottle, and my canon which of course is not blue.

lets pray that i wont get lost later on the road. thank you.

final words: i've figured out, that.., if its not challenging, its just plain boring. so i'm happy to embrace whatever challenges that life wants to throw at me now, and I'll yell "GIMME MORE!!!"

2010-04-03T01:33:00.002+11:00

abah kata

bukan senang nak senang, bukan susah nak susah

aku kata

nak senang susah, nak susah senang

upin + ipin kata

betul betul betul!

semua kata

bersusah-susah dulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.

sekian.

2010-04-02T09:49:00.003+11:00

its officially the start of a week-long holiday!!!!

yippee yeay yeay!! XD

things to do:

canberra; saturday-tuesday

laser skirmish; wednesday

lepak with budak2 INTI; thursday

IKEA; friday

easter show; saturday

SUPRE' factory outlet; sunday

is it really a holiday? well.., YES!!! Thats why we all have the time to burn ALL WEEK LONG!!!!

final words: i like.

2010-03-31T15:04:00.002+11:00

i got the results for last week's test : ECON1203 and ECON1101

i did well for statistics but kinda bad for microecons. overall, i feel kinda bad right now, because of the microecons. i didnt flunked the test, but the idea of me not getting the highest possible marks because of not paying careful attention to the question, made me lose easy marks. i got credit, still i feel bad.

not being pessimistic---i wanna focus on the good things.

we do mistakes, therefore we learn

and as said before;

life does not require us to make good, it asks only that we give our best at each level of experience.

final words: *cheers* + *peace* = a good day.

2010-03-26T16:05:00.003+11:00

Yes, saya berjaya mendiamkan diri sehingga jumaat.

*melompat-lompat sambil tepuk tangan*

Yes, saya berjaya menyiapkan assignment MGMT1001 malam semalam, walaupun jam sebenarnya dah menunjukkan hari sudah bertukar jumaat. Tak apa, asalkan assignment MGMT siap untuk dihantar semasa tutorial pagi ini.

Jam hampir sampai nombor 5, aku duduk atas katil.

*set alarm clock supaya dapat bangun sebelum jam 8, jam 9-tutorial MGMT*

*tak payah guling-guling dah, terus tidur*

Aku ada mimpi yang sangat pelik, terlalu pelik sampai dah tak ingat mimpi apa sebenarnya. Tiba2, dalam mimpi rasa terkejut, tersentap, terus bangun dari katil, lihat jarum jam di dinding. Jam 10.

*mengucapkan tahniah kepada diri sendiri*

*berjaya untuk tidak menghadirkan diri ke tutorial MGMT secara TIDAK sengaja*

Jalan lenggang-lenggang dalam baju tidur ke meja study. Tengok di handphone, ada mesej.

From: Rebecca

Hey, I'm going to be late for the MGMT tutorial all because i had to stay up late last night to finish the assignment.

*aku lihat message details, sent 8.30am*

*senyum kambing sorang2*

aku balas

To: Rebecca

Yo rebecca. I just woke up. And I didnt even go for tute!!! Plz tell me donna didnt collect any spot collection today.

mesej2 dari rebecca berkaitan assignment, everest simulation dan bila aku patut meet up with her memandangkan minggu ni kami tak pernah lunch together lagi.

Aku pandang laptop dan print out essay management yang mesti dihantar.

*termenung seketika*

*pandang buku accounting - terkedip-kedip*

*buat latihan untuk tutorial accounting untuk jam 12 nanti*

Jam 11.45, bergegas ke uni naik basikal. Aku bakal jadi the next Armstrong.

Jam 1, selesai tutorial accounting. Pergi ke bangunan Australian School of Business (ASB), west wing, tingkat 5, school of management.

*terima kasih lif. terima kasih orang yang mencipta lif*

*keluar lif, mata terkedip-terkedip lagi*

*toleh kiri, nampak school of management, tapi.., kenapa pintu ditutup?*

*baca nota2 yang ditampal, harus guna intercom*

*aku petik2 butang intercom*

tut..tut..tut...

KENAPA TAKDE ORANG JAWAB??

*bawa bersabar, tarik nafas dalam2*

*pandang kiri, pandnag kanan, pusing2 di satu titik yang sama, di depan pintu*

*180darjah ke belakang, aku nampak satu kotak hitam yang tertulis, assignment drop box*

*terletak di depan lif tadi*

*aku senyum kambing lagi*

*tepuk dahi*

Aku lihat ada kertas2 di atas kotak hitam tadi. Kertas yang perlu diisi butiran assignment yang harus dihantar. Aku lihat ada stapler yang tergantung jatuh dari kotak hitam. Aku ambil satu kertas dengan tangan kiri dan stapler dengan tangan kanan.

*aku petik2 beberapa kali stapler di tangan kanan, tapi takde satu pun besi kokot yang melekat di kertas*

stapler itu sudah habis dawai kokotnya.

*aku senyum kambing lagi*

HOW IN THE WORLD AM I SUPPOSE TO HAND IN THIS ASSIGNMENT?????

*pusing2 di satu titik yang sama, di depan kotak hitam yang besar itu*

*pusingan kali kedua, mata hitamku mengesan donna keluar dari salah satu lif itu*

DONNA!!! DONNA!!! DONNA!!!

*donna berpusing2 terpinga2*

*aku dapat rasa senyum yang tersangat-sangat-sangat lebar di bibirku, sampai ke telinga*

Donna: Hey, Husna!! How are you???

*wow, she remembered my name!!! huahuahua*

Me: I'm really sorry Donna that I didnt make it to the tutorial this morning.

(konon2 nada kesal)

Donna: Oh, no worries! hehe. You want to send in your assignment?

Me: Yeah2. Can I send it to you?

Donna: Yeah of course! Here let me settle it for you.

(big smile on her face)

Me: ah.., luckily u came out of that lift just now.

Donna: Haha, yeah, good timing!

Ok..everything's settled. There you go (handing me a receipt of the assignment) Ok, Husna, I wish you all the best in life in overseas, have a good time. Have a good day.

Me: Yeah2, you too! Thank you very much!!

turun tangga, terserempak jess and her friend, terserempak sueray, makan2 di pavi with sueray and aiman. tunjukkan jalan berbasikal yang paling senang untuk sueray ke royal randwick.

mesej2 dari rebecca berterusan. aku harus jumpa dia minggu depan, katanya tak best kalau seminggu tak jumpa. haha. good rebecca! i agree!

final words: hari yang sangat panas. aku seperti cacing kepanasan di bilik ini. Google kata sydney 34degrees celcius. Nape panas sgt weyh??? Bila sydney nak sejuk ni.. sungguh tak ku paham.

2010-03-25T00:17:00.002+11:00

saya akan mendiamkan diri sehingga jumaat.

idop MGMT!!!

kerana tugasan yang tak siap2 ini.

ya udah.., malam jumaat aja aku liburan.

thats not my name..well..not exactly..

2010-03-21T08:55:00.003+11:00

Venue: Every time my name is called by the tutors

Scene:

Tutor: Ok. Attendance.....

[starts to make a weird face]

Me:

[i can see the wrinkles on your forehead]

[yes, i can guess what it is you're trying so hard to understand/comprehend/make sense of]

Tutor:

[opens mouth with a slow motion yet with no confidence at all]

Me:

[yes...its coming, i can guess whats going to come out from your lips]

Tutor:

nnnnuuuuoooorrrr.....

[silence]

Me:

Yup! Thats me! Just Husna please, thank you.

[big grin on my face]

Tutor:

oh/aha/okay

[since they all come from 4 different tutors]

final words: and for some particular reason, my name always appear the first in every tutor's list. And I'm well sure that it has nothing to do with alphabetical order. Well, the unique one always stands out I guess. lol

coogee and all its wonders

2010-03-20T18:33:00.001+11:00

2010-03-16T02:02:00.001+11:00

messing around with the tone curve is exciting

i think so too

2010-03-10T15:49:00.002+11:00

the perfect words to accurately describe what i've been believing.

kameraku kembali aktif

2010-03-09T07:18:00.003+11:00

2010-03-05T18:50:00.002+11:00

I dont want to write so much about how good I feel or how beautiful everything is here in Sydney. Everyone else in the same category as mine would have to say such things as those are the things that are expected when you're abroad. A country other than in Malaysia. The truth that is so obvious to me right now is, not all is beautiful. Not everything in Malaysia is worse compared to the things here in OZ. I find it hysterical when i think back of the times when I'm in Malaysia where people would say that "Ah, Malaysia has a bad system. If in overseas, tak mcm ni pun.." Well most of the time, such are the cases.

Ironically, I have many things to say here that are not as good as in Malaysia. To add in, the other day, I've met an Australian who has been to Malaysia and had many good things to say about Malaysia. I was happy to hear what I heard then, but somehow, it was literally, a slap to my face. How come, all the time I was in Malaysia, I've never appreciated the good things that she's said about my country. Is it not suppose to be my country after all? Indeed, yes. Since being in Sydney for a while now, I've come to realize how ungrateful I was to be called a Malaysian. And I'n not even going to ramble on what are the things that was not as good.

Dont give me any shit like "You're homesick. Thats why you feel such things." or "You're just feeling nostalgic." Coz I'm damn sure I'm not. You see, the things about an average Malaysian is that, they will constantly create an idea of how superior the whites are compared to themselves and the worst part is, we dont really like to participate with things that will build up the community. We rather cave in and build our own lives as individuals rather than thinking to develop as a community. What most of us fail to see is, how we, the average Malaysian are the ones responsible in shaping the country. You can be defensive by saying the politicians are the ones to blame. We like to analyse and say about what is wrong with our system. But none of us are brave enough to say those so called analyzed results out loud in public,or at least to the officials.

Well, we do have people who have a loud voice in claiming bad things about our politicians, parties showing the bad side of the opposite parties. Seriously, I dont give shit about any of those things coz they all wanted to be politicians in the first place coz of the power. Try reading today's newspaper and tell me one thing that contributes to critical analysis of how the commuter system in KL should be improved or otherwise changed. I would confidently say that 99% of the content will talk about politics. For once, can anyone who writes to the public comment on anything which is purely beneficial to the public rather than promoting which party we should vote on the next election. I will vote whoever I like in the community regardless of the party and no one can judge my morality or value by looking only at which party I voted.

I'm not editing any of the things I write here and I'm hell sure that the outcome is more of a haywire rambling than a well constructed article. I'm not writing a pure article anyway. You dont like my choices of words, the heck, i dont care. What I care is if you really read what I wrote and the contents in it and the points I'm trying to convey. If you dont, then I feel sorry for you.

Final words: I'm more of a Malaysian now then I was in Malaysia.

travelin' soldier

2010-03-04T18:24:00.001+11:00

Two days past eighteen
He was waiting for the bus in his army green
Sat down in a booth in a cafe there
Gave his order to a girl with a bow in her hair
He's a little shy so she gives him a smile
And he said would you mind sittin' down for a while
And talking to me,
I'm feeling a little low
She said I'm off in an hour and I know where we can go

So they went down and they sat on the pier
He said I bet you got a boyfriend but I don't care
I got no one to send a letter to
Would you mind if I sent one back here to you

Chorus: I cried
Never gonna hold the hand of another guy
Too young for him they told her
Waitin' for the love of a travelin' soldier
Our love will never end
Waitin' for the soldier to come back again
Never more to be alone when the letter said
A soldier's coming home

So the letters came from an army camp
In California then Vietnam
And he told her of his heart
It might be love and all of the things he was so scared of
He said when it's getting kinda rough over here
I think of that day sittin' down at the pier
And I close my eyes and see your pretty smile
Don't worry but I won't be able to write for awhile

[Chorus]

One Friday night at a football game
The Lord's Prayer said and the Anthem sang
A man said folks would you bow your heads
For a list of local Vietnam dead
Crying all alone under the stands
Was a piccolo player in the marching band
And one name read but nobody really cared
But a pretty little girl with a bow in her hair

2010-03-03T08:45:00.004+11:00

the first week in sydney.
and the few things that i've learnt during the first few weeks are:

- drunk people do ugly stuffs..and i mean really ugly stuffs. so yeah, in another way, drunkards are stupid people..when they're drunk that is. so, if they're trying to converse with you....they'll say stupid things which can be totally irrelevant but you'll just have to ignore them. the one thing you dont want to do is, provoke them. trust me.

- dont use Velcro strap bags during lectures (and also in tutes) coz they're just extremely annoying. i want to say excruciatingly annoying, but that would be wrong in english terms. why use velcro when there's a zipped one?? (i dont accept free gift as an answer)

- sit down next to a stranger in class and say hi to them (with a friendly face). you'll get new friends immediately. (doing it in tutes are much better though)

- the simpler you dress to uni, the better. sports shoes and thongs are more than welcome. but since its cold now, its better to opt for the sports shoe.

- take a bus to the city, get down somewhere (anywhere), walk around, go into buildings, walk out, try to find your way back. fortunately, if you get lost, there's always people around you to ask. just make sure, that you have a few trips left in your travelten.

- if you're lazy to go to the city, go to the town in your suburb. i dont really know about other towns, but randwick has a few exciting shops in town. so, walk around, go around, but make sure you're wearing comfortable footwear. If you wandered a lil bit too far for you to walk back home. There's always a bus! Just make sure you know the bus number that goes through your street.

Good luck with that. The first week in sydney. And i decided not to put in the places that you should go. Another time.

final words:....i still dont understand why MGMT1001 is a compulsory core subject in commerce....i have to put up with psychology in INTI, now i have to put up with this in UNSW.....oh how the world turns....

2010-02-19T02:54:00.001+11:00

seriously?? tengok TV lagi best dr mengemas sume brg2 ni dlm beg.
konklusi: saya nak turun tgk TV.
sekian, terima kasih.

almost gone

2010-02-18T02:55:00.002+11:00

I'm off to Sydney this Saturday. The flight will depart around 10.30 pm but I will have to go in around 2 hours before the departure time. I'll be at KLIA around 5.30pm. Feel free to send me off if you have the time.

I'm just getting started to pack my things right now. May everything go well, insya-Allah.

nike free

2010-02-02T21:05:00.003+11:00

yes3!
nike free on my feet!
running anyone?
marathon? hell, yeah!

but since i missed the registration for Putrajaya Night Marathon [typical me]..., i'm looking for another marathon.

so..., marathon events....anybody?...before the 20th??

run like an animal! [ok, thats Pearl Izumi but the tag line's cool]

ps: now i'm adding another label to the blog. sue me if you want to and talk to the feet. thanks.

Cerita Satu Malam

2010-02-01T11:31:00.007+11:00

Semalam kami satu rumah pegi hntr kakcik kat LCCT. Tgh kami semua makan malam kat Mary Brown, tiba2 mom dpt call from makteh. Makteh kata pakteh pegi kebun dr pukul 4ptg td tak balik2 lagi ni...la ni dah nak dkl pkl 9mlm dah. Nak dijadikan cerita..., pakteh tertinggal handphone kat rmh. Kami semua pun risau la, makteh kata depa jumpa motor terbalik dlm longkang kat kebun tu, tp pakteh pi naik keta. Aduh..., ni apa kes plak nih...moto bleh terbalik2 plak kat kebun?? Dahla pakteh plak takdak, hilang dr petang td sampai ke malam....Haish..aku pun dah pikir mcm2 la dlm kepala otak nih...

Lps tu, sy pun pegila ke rumah makteh dkt kota kemuning tu.., dgn dua abg sy..Jumpa makteh, dia kata, jiran dia pegi cari di kebun, ckp dgn org kebun n org kampung di situ.., rupa2nya, motor terbalik tu langgar keta pakteh. Org kampung kata, depa nampak pakteh bwk 2 org budak tu, tp taktaula pi mana...Ah, kami pun apa lagi, igt dah kes kena samun ka..apa2 ka...mmg risaula kami pun. Sebab kami pikir, logiknya, kalau pakteh hantar budak2 tu pi hospital or balai, mesti pakteh call balik. Dahtu, jiran dia call, kata tak jumpa pun keta pakteh kat hospital, blk kebun tgk2 motor td dah hilang. Hah, tak senang berdiri kami dibuatnya. Aku igt, ini kes org nak hilangkan bukti ka apa...

Ish..takleh jdk, kami bincang punya bincang..., jom pi kebun! Kita tgk kalau ada apa2 kat kebun tuh. Aku plak species pompuan taktau takut, joinla depa ni pi kebun malam2 buta mcm tu. Pakteh punya pasal, aku redah ja, lgpun badan bodyguard2 ni bleh tahan jgk. Kami pi kebun, konon2nya nak jdk CSI la, mencari benda kalau ada apa2. Redah semak, redah longkang, hampeh. Satu apa pun tak dpt, buang masa lagi ada. Nampak sgt CSI tu tipu, kalau cerita, dlm gelap pun bleh nampak sehelai rambut. Bg fendi kata, kita pi report polis jela, eventhough tak smpi 24 hrs lagi..Org ni dah takdak 5 jam dah ni...

Elok kami nak masuk keta, bangcik dpt call

Aik pakteh???
Ni apa crita ni pakteh?? Ada kat rumah dah??

Kisah sebenar:
Pakteh keluar kebun.
2 budak, sorang form2, sorang form4, langgar keta pakteh.
Pakteh thn keta, bwk pi hospital
Lps tu pi balai, buat repot polis
Katanya, kat balai tu yg lama, depa pi blk tempat kejadian, tgk moto, ambik ukuran, ambik gambar. Itu yg bila jiran pi blk kebun, tgk2 moto dah takdak. Haih....
Pakteh punya la terkejut, sampai tak teringat nak call blk org rumah.
Dahla sebesar-besar hospital tu takkan takdak tepon smpi tak call blk rumah. Dah kata pi balai, ats meja depan tu dah ada tepon sebesar-besar tepon.
Aduhai..pakteh2...buat kami suspense....kami igt dah kena samun ka kena apa ka...haih...

Mlm yg suspense, betukar klaka. Kami plak yg lepak kat rumah pakteh, minum teh makan biskut. Dahtu kenala blanja kami, smpi kami redah semak apa semua. haha

Kesimpulan yg dpt disimpulkan. Telefonlah org tersayang sekiranya anda akan mnghilangkan diri selama beberapa jam.

Heritage

2009-12-27T16:13:00.002+11:00

Semalam baru pergi tengok Gema Zafana di Istana Budaya. Pertunjukan daripada Yayasan Warisan Johor. Hebat! It was amazing and the dancers showed an extremely energizing performance.

Tapi sebenarnya, part yang best bila papa rock keluar. haha. Go Ramli Sarip!!! Disebabkan aku duduk betul2 di bahagian depan pentas, at the stalls, so the speaker mcm pecah2 sikit. Ditambah lagi dengan suara rock pak ramli..., maka...aku pun...tak dapat mendengar secara keseluruhan apa yang dinyanyikan pak ramli itu. hihi. tapi tetap layan..haha.

Mendidik jiwa? Betul. Nama pun kebudayaan Melayu, maka pasti ada unsur2 nilai agama dan bangsa. Sungguh, bangsaku dibina daripada landasan Islam dan ditambah dengan keindahan seni nenek-moyang turun temurun.

Papa rock menyanyi, "Katakan tuhan itu satu, katakan tuhan itu satu, katakan tuhan itu satu, katakan tuhan itu satu....kul huAllah hu ahad!"..."lakukan dengan nama tuhanmu!"...maka aku sudah merasa betapa kehadiran aku di panggung sari pada malam itu, pasti akan ada hikmahnya, untuk mendidik jiwaku.

Jalan ceritanya mudah saja, bagaimana seorang anak lelaki yang baru dilahirkan disambut meriah ahli keluarganya.

"lekaslah besar membuat jasa"

Anak itu dididik dengan ilmu agama, pedoman hidup.

"rukun islam ada lima perkara, marilah kita mengenal ia"

Sehingga besar, lahirlah putera menjadi pengarang jantung. Hmm, part ni, mudah ja. Dah jumpa bunga di taman, masuk saja meminang. Takut nanti bunga dipetik dek orang lain, melepasla si kumbang. Haha, pantunnya panjang, tp part itu yang paling senang ingat. heh

Sampailah ke akhir, anak muda tadi pergi berjuang untuk tanah air. Lahirlah seorang pahlawan bangsa.

Summing up, I just came to know that there aremany types of zapin. In Johor alone, there are 15 types of zapin! Again, it was another entertaining night at Istana Budaya. The show started at 8.30pm and ended at 12. I was exhausted by the end of the show, although all I did was sit and watch. haha. After that, my bro in law, sis and me went to Kg Baru to catch supper. For me it was my late dinner. The Ship was an interesting restaurant, not a bad choice at all. Arrived home at 2. Woke up at 3am to find that I was sleeping on the couch in the living room. Got up and went upstairs to have a decent sleep.

Final words: Anyone interested in watching simfoni muzik tradisional at IB in Feb?

breaking ice

2009-12-25T04:23:00.003+11:00

i need to run again
seriously
desperately

oh. and result...alhamdulillah, i got TER above 90. although the grades of the subjects kinda disappoint me. but since i didnt really worked my ass out, i think that is what i get. hehe, yg penting aku bahagia..btul tak? ahaks. and one more thing yg penting, i dpt offer from my dream uni. ^^

so, again, i know its a little bit late for this, but i still wanna write it anyway:
thank you to everyone who had supported me, helped me and prayed for me.
thank you, thank you, and thank you again. ^^

final words: i really really really do need to run again.

terima kasih

2009-11-05T16:38:00.003+11:00

to nana who gave this link to me. and originally to the person who gave this link to her.

because you just made me realize for the things that i've taken for granted
and the things that i should have been grateful for
and the things that i should fight for.

please watch the link above. an interesting video.

LAMPU TRAFIK

2009-11-01T19:22:00.002+11:00

SAM public exam.

Someone said: So, its near the corner already...

I said: No. I'm already at the traffic light waiting for it to turn green, honey.

So, to everyone who's going to sit for the first SAM paper tomorrow, I wish you all the best and good luck! And may that good luck token be with you until the last day of exam.

Don't break a leg, break both of your legs!!! *peace*

a story about two girls and a crab

2009-10-30T17:10:00.004+11:00

characters:
me
kakngah
abg fendi
the "Crab"

location:
the kitchen

scene 1:
Daddy's friend came to visit our house in Kuantan one morning. So came along the "Crab" as a friendly souvenir from him. Ah, here's the interesting part:

"the crab is alive and it comes with a pail"
.....I guess the pail is also a part of the souvenir from daddy's friend....

Daddy brought the pail, with the living crab in it, to the kitchen, for me and kakngah to cook for lunch.

scene 2:

me: Ketam ni hiduplah kakngah....macam mana nak proses ek?

kakngah: ntahla.......

me: mmm....i think...we kena buat macam nak masak siput sedut kot....

kakngah: siput sedut??

me: ala....kan siput sedut kan tak hidup dalam air tawar..(ntah betul ke tidak)...sebab tu kita rendam dulu dalam air paip...bagi dia mati...

kakngah: hmm..ya kot...

me: lagipun..., ketam ni kan hidup air masin...mesti dia mati kalau kita rendam dia dalam air paip..hehe...(pandai2 buat inferens sendiri)

kakngah: kk...haa..diknun letakla air paip dlm baldi tu dulu..kita siapkan rencah dulu...

scene 3:
I put water into the pail...about half of the pail i think...and i can see te crab tingling around...right then i wonder if crabs can really swim...but i left the thought to be idle..

after 30 minutes: the crab is still tingling around. its definitely a sign that its still alive.

kakngah: tak mati pun nun...

me: hmm...kena tambah air kot...

so I dengan selamba ambik air dan tambahkan paras air dalam baldi tu....

crab: air yang hampir penuh membuatkan ia berjaya panjat ke mulut baldi dan meloloskan diri dari terkurung dalam baldi..

me and kakngah: mata bulat...berundur ke belakang...

crab: moving towards kakngah and "me" with its fast feets...

me and kakngah: shouting with fear while running out of the kitchen.

scene 4:
Abg fendi came to the rescue. I dont know how, but he managed to trap the crab and put it back into the pail.

me: THATS IT! I'm putting hot water into this thing!!
and poured the boiling hot water into the pail.

me and kakngah can see the steam coming out from the pail. The crab turned red in colour and stopped moving. We just guessed that its finally dead.

final act:
it didnt take long for us to cook the crab bcuz its already half cooked. And it came out from the kitchen as "Ketam masak lemak cili api".

-end of story-

ps: the crab still tasted good and i ate with delight.heh.

funeral blues - W.H Auden

2009-10-29T00:59:00.004+11:00

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

ps: I watched "Four Weddings and a Funeral" the other day and came across this beautiful poem which was read by one of the character in the story. I find it amusing in how such modern items mentioned in the poem can make it sound so classic at the same time. heh. Just something to share with everyone.

adik tukang foto

2009-10-23T00:05:00.004+11:00

I was always fascinated with beautiful moments captured in photos whenever i saw them since i was little. But i never really had the guts and enough passion to actually learn the skills of photography and take it seriously. My first encounter with photography skills was when i was in my early years of highschool. I was trying to take a picture of Gunung Jerai which can be seen from my grandparents' house. But it didnt look right and i was frustrated with the results. My brother was beside me and taught me my first lesson in photography right there and then.

Not long after i came to know that my brother was somehow passionate about photography. He took up photography as one of his hobby while he was studying in Indonesia. His wife would say that it was his way out from stress and keeps him sane. Then I got to see how his pictures grew more beautiful with the years. After I went to Indonesia for his convocation, I got the chance to play with his then Nikon D70. I came back and decided to try it. It's a little girl's dream but why let it dissolve with time without making it real? Took a class about photography and bought my first dslr, Canon 1000d, which cost me a fortune. Heh. But I must say, it was worth every penny. Although I have to come clean and be honest about my lack of experience and skills in photography, I would like to believe that my photos too, like my brother's, will grow better with the years.

Out of hundreds snaps that I've taken with my 1000d, I must say, there's only a few that really caught me by heart and that I'm really proud of.

This was taken in bukit bintang, kl. I had an adventurous and must I say, fun, trip around Kl with Anis.

Both were taken in the public pool in KLCC. Seeing the smiles and laughs on these kids faces reminds me of happy times. But I must say, I favour the second one better.

The picture was snapped in Cherating. After a few changes in photoshop, this is the result. I hated the grains thats visible on the photo but later I grew fond of it as I realized how it gave the photo a different texture from the others that I've taken before. It reminds me of the word 'retro'. haha

ps: I'm not quite sure on why i wrote this post. Maybe its one of those times when I would reminisce over the past choices I've made, was it right, and how I've progressed. In this case, I'm glad to say that its not oneof those times when I would thought "What if i made a different decision..", coz I know those times would mean something I've regretted of doing.

What i want to share?
---you're going to make choices; you're going to challenge; you're going to say why not; you're going to figure out how to do things that have never been done before

i'm a bitch i'm a lover

2009-10-19T05:29:00.001+11:00

I hate the world today
You're so good to me, I know
But I can't change

I tried to tell you but
You look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried,
Must have been relieved
to see the softer side

I can understand why
you are so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
all rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between,
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
this may mean you'll
have to be a stronger man

rest assured that when
I start to get you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
and today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between,
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

Just when you think
You got me figured out
The seasons already changin'

I think its cool
You do what you do
And don't try to change me

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between, You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover,
I'm a child, I'm a mother,
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint,
I do not feel ashamed,

I'm your hell, I'm your dream,
I'm nothing in between,
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease,
I'm a goddess, on my knees,
When you hurt, when you suffer,
I'm an angel under cover

I'm a nunI'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

---this song is addictive....

21 Ramadhan

2009-09-11T19:01:00.002+10:00

Salam.

Ali kw menghembuskan nafasnya yg terakhir. Pesan trakhir buat anaknya, "Bertakwalah kepada Allah." Ucapannya yang terakhir, "Fuztu wa RABBil Ka'bah (Aku telah menang demi Tuhan Ka'bah)." Kita menangisi kematiannya. Dia meninggalkan kita untuk bertemu dengan KEKASIHnya.

Pernah Ali kw membeli 2 pasang baju baru yang sama mutunya. Orang bertanya mengapa sampai 2? Ali kw menjawab, " 1 untuk aku dan 1 lagi untuk Qambar pembantuku." Seorang yang lumpuh dan miskin dirawat dan dibersihkan oleh Ali kw setiap pagi sebelum menjalankan tugas sebagai khalifah. Sebaik saja si lumpuh menerima khabar kematian Ali kw, beliau terus meratap sayu setelah menyedari yang merawat dan membersihkannya setiap pagi adalah seorang khalifah.

Saiyidina Abu Bakar ra pernah mendengar Nabi saw bersabda, "Memandang wajah Ali adalah ibadah." Sekarang Ali kw dah pergi. Yang tinggal hanyalah kembarnya iaitu Quran. Pandanglah Quran dan faqir, kita sedang memandang Ali kw. Terima kasih Rabbi kerana menjadikan Ali kw untuk kami ikuti. Salawat.

ps: sorry tak kongsi tazkirah2 pakcik sejak awal lagi. yg dpt through sms, harap dpt sebarkan. insya-allah.

hari selasa yang lain dari yang lain

2009-08-12T02:03:00.003+10:00

aku nak kata malam selasa yang tak begitu normal..., tp dah masuk pagi rabu dah. the clock is 12.04am.

lepas facebooking and youtubing and eiffel i'm in love...aku mmg selamba mensia-siakan malam ni dgn tak study. padahal minggu exam. heh. takpe..sekali sekala, aku tak rasa bersalah pun. penat sikit selepas terkinja-kinja kegelian dgn citer eiffel i'm in love. heh, jiwang karat sgt...aku tak mampu menahan..haha.

skrg tgh layan lagu "meet virginia", train. best la, boleh pasang lagu sekuat mungkin, takdek sape pon nak peduli. sebab mmg takdek sape2 pon. haha. oh yes, walaupun aku keseorangan di blok s skrg, but i'm enjoying the solitude. i always wanna make my side of the grass greener than the other side. tak payah tunggu nak guna washing machine and dryer. the machines adalah hak milik aku skrg. internet yg laju, aku download lagu2, tak smpi 5 min bleh hbs. rasenye cukup laju la kot, for me. and the whole floor is like my personal pad now..except that i cant enter into the other rooms.

tp boring jugakla, hari ni at least ade exam accounting from 8am to 11.10am. so, sekurang-kurangnya, pagi aku terisi. lepas tu aku balik...crash katil yg tak brape empuk ni, tarik selimut, tdo. sedar2 dah 6.30. keluar, beli nasi lemak kat pakcik depan roswell, beli sachets boh untuk ice lemon tea.

lepas tu aku online smpi la skrg. cik sara datang sekejap ke bilik aku td, kesunyian. haha. aku memahami. aku berjaya tempuh hari ni. tp esok aku still tak pasti. i pray everything will be alright.

"everybody loves simplicity until it gets too complicated"-dilbert

aku mmg bleh relate to the quote right now. as far as i'm enjoying the solitude, i would LOVE to have a simple conversation with someone from time to time. mcm malam semalam, kesunyian ini menyebabkan aku terpaksa ajak kawan aku stella dr blok e untuk temankan aku makan dan study sama2 kat dining. i can always eat dinner by myself, like i've done before...tp mlm semalam kes istimewa sebab aku tau kalau aku balik blok s, mmg aku takkan berpeluan nak berkomunikasi. stella kata i sound really depressed online, i said i am. haha.

sedap jugak rupanya ice lemon tea boh ni. dia kata kat satchet to peria tropical fruits. aku kira berapa kali aku bancuh, masuk cup ni, dah 3 kali. bebudak blok a ajak aku lepak ngan diorang. mmg aku hargai, tp kaki aku rasa kemalasan teramat sgt.

"i'm enjoying the solitude"

ckp pasal kaki, aku perlu berlari. running keeps me sane. i definitely need that now.

setakat ni exam semua alhamdulillah. cuma aku nervous dgn maths aku. i wish i had more time during the exam. harap2 a..insya-allah. ntahla..., tunggu je la result kuar the next few weeks. esok takdek paper. so aku bleh study economy and law esok. the whole DAY all to myself. solitude ni membantu aku untuk fokus. ah, so aku boleh bgn awal and run in the early morning. catching back my stamina would be good.

another song poetry

2009-08-11T02:03:00.001+10:00

kali ni lain dr bee-angel punye post..heheh

When youre close to tears remember
Some day itll all be over
One day were gonna get so high
And though its darker than december
Whats ahead is a different colour
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
Youll always keep me flying high in the sky of love

Dont you think its time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day were gonna get so high
cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day were gonna get so high

And at
The end of the day
Well remember the days
We were close to the edge
And well wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
Well remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
Well remember it was me and you

cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love

High, high, high, high...

best song poetry i heard during my childhood years

2009-08-10T03:17:00.001+10:00

Drops of Jupiter - Train

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there’s time to change, hey, hey, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey, hey, hey
hey, hey, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she’s back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey, hey
mmmm.....
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there’s room to grow, hey, hey, hey, hey
yea...

Now that she’s back in the atmosphere
I’m afraid that she might think of me as plain ol jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you, even when I know you’re wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself

nah nah nah nah nah nah nah
nah nah nah nah nah nah nah

And did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day

nah nah nah nah nah nah
nah nah nah nah nah nah

And did you fall for a shooting star
Fall for a shooting star

nah nah nah nah nah nah
nah nah nah nah nah nah

Are you loney looking for yourself out there

di balik cermin mimpi

2009-02-28T19:07:00.001+11:00

Di balik cermin mimpi
Aku melihat engkau
Di dalam engkau
Aku melihat aku
Ternyata kita adalah sama
Di arena mimpi yang penuh bermakna

Bila bulan bersatu dengan mentari
Bayang-bayang ku hilang
Di selebungi kerdip nurani
Mencurah kasih, kasih murni
Mencurah kasih

Di balik cermin, cermin mimpi
Adalah realiti yang tidak kita sedari
Hanya keyakinan dapat merestui
Hakikat cinta yang sejati
Hakikat cinta yang sejati

Dengan tersingkapnya tabir siang
Wajah kita jelas terbayang
Dan terpecah cermin mimpi
Menjadi sinar pelangi
Pelangi

baked beans and apple juice

2009-02-25T20:37:00.004+11:00

its 5.38 pm and tuning in to 'the sound of rain' by Allah almighty.

it has been raining for days now...i mean in the evening...so i cant jog...sobsob.
i'm not in the mood to do anything in particular.....so...i end up eating a can of baked beans and drinking a carton of apple juice.

i finished my class early today, before 12 to be exact...so i've been sitting in my room and studying since then...alone...as much as i love having my own space sometimes....but sitting and studying for 2 and half hours straight..alone...makes the atmosphere boring at its optimum. thus, i went out...alone...to inti mart to buy a can of baked beans and a carton of apple juice. heh, at least i met a few friends on the way there and the security lady was good enough to speak to me on my way back to Shakespeare..."ah, balik bawak hujan sekali eh???"...'hehehe' was my reply....giggling was the most appropriate reaction to me at the time...

but at least....despite being alone for most of the time today....i managed to finish my econs work and studied accountancy...hmm., well done for that i guess..alhamdulillah.

did i mention that a can of baked beans[not cooked on stove] taste just like when they are heated on the stove except that they are cold in my case today. ah, so now.., thats a new experience then. heh.

.......rain oh rain....when will ye shall stop and let me hop??....

teringat dialog hang tuah...

..."pasir mana yang aku genggam?
berat tanganku...
semakin layu bunga berkembang..
bumi yang luas...
aku..seorang..."

layan je....nothing significant with this post...i'm just feeling a little bit sentimental right now with this rain spattering on earth...^_^...*peace*

malam ini, malam bersemangat!!! ^_^

2009-02-24T01:11:00.003+11:00

hoho, iya, lihat saja tajuk diatas, dan fakta bahawa ini adalah post kedua untuk hari ini membuktikan aku sangat bersemangat pada malam ini. heh..mengapakah???

1. aku dah dapat markah maths test aku...aku pass...agak melegakan walaupun tidak selesa tapi alhamdulillah sebab sekurang-kurangnya..., markah tidaklah seteruk sangkaanku...tapi usaha MESTI diteruskan...maka dengan itu..ia membawa kepada poin..

...ke-2. oleh sebab aku dah janji nak buat maths tiap2 malam selepas apa yang terjadi tempoh hari, maka pada malam ini aku telah dengan jayanya menunaikan janjiku pada diriku sendiri. ngehngeh, maka itu merujuk kepada mengapa malam ini, malam yang bersemangat untuk aku. heheh, alhamdulillah sekali lagi.

3. hari ini pintu hatiku terbuka dengan pesanan pakcik.....

...."Bila dah tua, selalu lupa. Lupa TUHAN, lupa peralatan. Masa husna
sedang mudalah, gunakan kesempatan untuk meraih ilmu dan ibadat. Bila
dah tua macam pakcik, hanya cita2 yang masih ada. Sedangkan tiada kekuatan ruh

dan jasad untuk merealisasikan cita2 Islam. Salawat."....

sebelum itu dia berpesan lagi...

...."Pakcik harap juga husna terus pertahankan hak Islam dengan cara
intelek walaupun di hadapan non muslim."....

mesej kedua tu lebih menikam qalbu dari yang pertama...menyedarkan aku tentang betapa ceteknya ilmu yang aku ada sekarang....sudah cukupkah untuk menangkis segala persoalan dan salah tanggapan mereka pada Islam ku ini??? maka itu merupakan sebab kedua mengapa malam ini, malam bersemangat. kerana ilmu itu tidak pernah cukup dan sesungguhnya ilmu itu milik Allah, maka aku tidak mahu jemu dalam terus mendalami dan mencari apa jua ilmu yang ada di dunia ini...insya-allah...

balas aku ringkas saja pada pakcik...

...."Insya-allah. kul bilhak."....
terlalu pantas menekan butang 'send' sampai tak sedar mesej
tadi tidak lengkap.., heh, maka pakcik membalas
...."walau kaana murra. Takbir. Salawat."....

maka dengan itu, pakcik sekali lagi telah menyedarkan aku tentang betapa pahitnya untuk mengatakan yang hak dan benar....tapi jihad tak pernah hadir dengan mudah...kalau tidak...tidaklah ia dinamakan jihad...

malam ini, post didalam bahasa melayu sebab petang tadi ada hamba Allah memesan, bahasa jiwa bangsa...^_^, maka..sekali-sekala, apa salahnya berbahasa melayu?? heheh, bangga cikgu BM aku masa di SBPIT dulu. heheh ^_^

malam ini mungkin sedikit emo...tetapi yang membawa kepada kebaikan...maka aku ingin sekali lagi....alhamdulillah.

alas....

2009-02-23T15:30:00.002+11:00

yes..alas..back in college again...

yes..alas..i'm free from the annoying sore throat that i've had for days...

yes..alas..i can focus on the days ahead and learn from the past...

and yes...this is just a simple post posted by my most vulnerable feelings i have right now...

tuning in to: details in the fabric (jason mraz feat james morrison)

final words: alhamdulillah

bad days

2009-02-20T14:44:00.004+11:00

the last 2 days were not good ones for me. to begin with...i felt like i just ruined my math studies test. it was terrible to know that you've done the questions before but it just didnt click at the time and i found myself in a huge mess, solving the problems and the worst part is....doing the simple equations wrongly since i was very very very nervous...haish....T_T....and the thought that i'm going to see my maths lecturer this evening in her class makes me wanna sulk. but yet again..., it was terrible..i agree...but getting stuck in this depressed mood is the last thing that i wanna do right now.

i need to run....like....letting it all out....

talking about running...., i havent ran since last week and if i dont run today...., it will make it my 14 days without running....huhu...i felt bad for that too....since running is the fun part in most of my days...now i'm not even able to do that fun thing because i dont feel well these few days. yeah, my throat is sore and i'm having trouble getting to sleep because of it. just like what happened last night..., yeah i know that it was my bad that i chit-chatted with the girls till 2 am. i tried to sleep afterwards..., but i just cant...the sore throat was bad and its distracting me from sleeping. heh, i even have to focus when i want to sleep. lame excuse, i know.

however, as a result..., i woke up late and i missed my enl class this morning. heh, but it was fun anyway.., the chance of getting to say i overslept so i missed the class, since i never did that before. heheh.

but hey, every cloud has a silver lining. so what i am going to do? do not wait for the silver lining, search for it! [ah, how optimistic that sounds]....

list that I WILL DO today:
-get over the depression mood, look forward and swear that i'm going to do maths every night after this
-go and run this evening!
-read up on my law,econs and accounting, coz those subjects make me happy. [i cant believe that i just found out, reading subjects suits me well.] heh

......ok, maybe thats a little too much to do in one night but the list is for me to focus on optimistic days ahead. we all need that, dont we?

final words:
You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn

nothing much this morning

2009-02-17T12:29:00.002+11:00

9.30 am: listening to clueso..
there is suppose to be an accounting class this morning at 8am. woke up early and went to class..and guess what? class canceled! aha, then i dont know what to do already..., so went to side walk cafe' and took my breakfast....i think that one will be a brunch coz i have an econs class at 10am-12pm and i'll be waiting for the bus to go to parliament at 12.15. after the brunch...i looked left and right...other people on the same table are reading up the econs paper..yup, i'm having an econs quiz at 10am....do i want to join them and read..AGAIN??no, twice is good enough for me i think...i dont think i can manag to read up the same thing all over again for the third time. why is it the third time? because i dont really have any other stuff to read....well, i do have a few books on the shelf in my room...., but politics are not in my current favourite-reference right now....

since i'm blabbering nonsense right now..., i guess i better stop and get ready to go to my econs class.heh

yes, we learn....

2009-02-13T15:00:00.001+11:00

I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I recommend walking around naked in your living room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

I recommend biting off more then you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're gonna have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming up around the bend

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn

malam ini, malam klasik ^_^

2009-02-12T01:42:00.002+11:00

aku sekarang sudah amat bagus dalam bahasa2 klasik sejak sudah berulang-ulang kali aku melihat pgl the movie.

petang td pun, aku sambung tgk lagi pgl the movie.
hahaha, ayat-ayat di atas macam kentut je, aku akui...

but seriously....., terpesona dengan keindahan bahasa dan kias2 bait yang digunakan. ^_^

my favourite phrase...
'patah sayap rajawali....,bertungkat jua ia kembali.....'
pastu tiara jawab..'adinda anggap sebagai janji..' wahwah! tetibe aku rase sgt puitis! hakhak

'setapak melangkah..., dua langkah ingatan kanda pada dinda...' ...iskisk..

when they met at the peak...
'apa dengan tungkat rajawali ke mari?'
'demi cinta.., tiada gunung terlalu tinggi..'

lagi2,
'cinta kanda terlepas dari jasad sendiri? tergantung di langit??'
tuah membalas..'apakan daya, tangan terikat di langit, kaki terpasak di bumi, jasad tak setanding mimpi..'

hehehe

closing this post with....
'berlayar berbelok-belok,
sauh dibungkar di tempat tenang,
yang ditinggal, hati tak elok.
yang pergi, hati tak senang'...^_^

memang pergi hati tak senang pun, esok ade test accounting, nasib ku baik kerna sudah berulang-ulang kali ku baca sampai sudah tidak larat lagi aku membaca...;]

puteri gunung ledang the musical season3

2009-02-10T00:59:00.006+11:00

the show was actually on the 7th of February which was actually on last saturday. but me being me, i'm writing this today coz i want to collect the pics from anis as i didnt bring any cam that day coz mine was with my brother.

the journey started around 9.30am when me,izzah and anis went to the KTM station in Nilai with my car. i figured that maybe we'll hang around kl a lil bit longer after the show, maybe until 11pm, so driving the car to the KTM station would be convenient if there's no bus around in case we'll be coming back late at night.

the journey in the train that morning was significant to me because i remember this one makcik. she went in straight to the far end, where i was standing, and sat right in front of me. siap duduk bersila lagi. people started to fill in and packed up the limited space in the train on the next station and the makcik refusing to sit up, squeezed closer to me. ah, so there i was, squeezed up between the makcik in front of me with the wall behind me and izzah on my right with the window panel on my left. for another long 45 minutes,approximately, i was standing straight. luckily, i didnt carry much stuff in my handbag, otherwise the weight would make it worse. my feet started to feel stiff and alas! KL central!!! ah, what a relief!! tin sardin pun tin sardin lah, asalkan sampai. fuh!

then we took Putra to KLCC. we reached KLCC around 11am and went straight to the foodcourt. i was damn hungry that morning.

so that was our 'brunh' for the day!

afterwards.., we went shopping around klcc for a while. someone got herself a new swimming suit btw :P . then, we were followed by an Iraqi man. he's an old man. bloated stomach, white hair and all. he was following us around.

out of no where, he popped out!
strange old man: malaysian?
us: yes, malaysian [i was thinking, ah.., this is nice, a tourist wanted to have a conversation with us!]
strange old man: u? friends? me?
us: huh???

me thinking: ok, this is going a lil bit weird.
he doesnt even know how to converse well in english.

strange old man: me, Iraq. u two. my friends??? walk? me?
me thinking: ok, this IS weird. reaction=get away from this old guy.

so we did, and he followed us to THREE different stores! at the third store, we went out quickly, and looked back. ah, he didnt follow us anymore..what a relief!! fuh.

after Zuhur prayer, we went out to take a cab to Istana Budaya. that was around 2.15 or 2.25pm. so, we still have time until the show starts at 3pm.

when we arrived, we waited a few more minutes for afe. owh, i forgot to mention earlier. the original plan was me,izzah, anis and dayah to watch the show together. but for some reasons, dayah couldnt make it that day so we called up a few friends to join us and got afe!

they were already announcing that the show will start in 1 minute time and afe was still not there. i kept calling her to hurry up, and poor afe had to walk as fast as she could in her one-inch high heels. heheh.

but we managed to sit in just on time before the show started. announcement tu saje2 je nak bagi orang gabra, bila masuk, ada lagi a few minutes sblm show starts. so, we didnt miss anything at all! ^_^

so here are anis,izzah,me and afe

the show lasted around 3 hours. including the 20 minutes break in the middle of the show. we got out around 6pm and we were lingering around the main entrance, waiting and wishing for our luck that the cast will come out. half an hour but still nothing. except for the bayan la, which was played by ida mariana. i saw her walking around the main entrance. i tried to catch up with her to snap a few photos. but unfortunately, she was rushing her way to some other place. so instead of the cast, we got photos of ourselves!

after the show, we went to afe's house which was like a 10minutes drive from Istana Budaya. had our mahgrib prayer there and then out again! heh, it was dinner time. so, with afe's kancil, we went to Naili's Place which wa very near to ampang point and the opposite road of Ampang Puteri's hospital. the ambience was very nice and great! and the food was also a pleasent to the tongue ^_^. i was soooo hungry that i actually managed to finish up a whole plate of steak all by myself! during our dinner, i managed to buy a few dvds that i'm planning to watch the next few weeks. heheh. there was also a nice guy which came to our table to promote his cupcakes, actually, his wife's cupcakes. the label was PETIT. it was very nice and cute! anis bought one, and i ate one of them. ^_^

then, around 10.15pm, afe sent us to the ampang park station where we got in a PUTRA to KL Central and then took a komuter to Nilai. while we were waiting for the komuter in KL Central, i saw the same makcik from the mornin's train, going down the escalator. haha, funny, but one thing's for sure, we went to another side of the train in case she wants to sit on the floor again. we made a joke, if she likes to sit in the morning, who knows, maybe she'll lie down at night! haha

we arrived in Nilai around 12 and we were very very very very tired. but it was good day out and i'll be looking forward to another one like this in the near future. yes, the next show i'll be going will be konsert alam muzik, m.nasir. we'll see what that will have in offer for my book of experience. ^_^

love this one too! heheh

2009-02-06T20:06:00.000+11:00

Real Life Adventures by Gary Wise and Lance Aldrich

love this one

2009-02-06T19:54:00.004+11:00

Cul de Sac by Richard Thompson

we all have this feeling before, dont we?

2009-02-04T01:44:00.003+11:00

alanis morisette - uninvited

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot-blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepherd need shepherd
But you you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

a relieving bite of a chocolate

2009-02-03T01:53:00.003+11:00

its 10.54 p.m and i'm listening to faith hill - secret of a life. yup, been listening to faith hill a lot lately.., and i mean A LOT! love her, glad that i bought the cd. ^_^

about the chocolate, suddenly i remember about an amusing experience that happened to me the last 2 days. what did i remember huh?? well, let me see..., i remember that i was kinda hungry during that particular afternoon, even though i've eaten my lunch before that. so i went to the refrigerator to grab a piece of chocolate. yup, it was the last Dove that we had. i like Dove because it has this memos and anecdotes on each chocolate wrapper. this one is one of a kind in that packet because it was the first wrapper that tells me this "mistakes are proof that you are trying". wow, and you know what..., i felt relieved when i read that. alas, one out of a hundred Doves that i ate, this one really makes sense. well, i'm not really sure anyway, if what i felt at the time was because of the chocolate effect or anything else.

people say that eating chocolates can give you a boost of this one particular hormone that can make you feel happy. ah, now we learn that happy is actually a chemical reaction in our brain not just some reaction from the brain because it triggers your mind...hmm, this sounds too much like psychology class. heh, i'm glad though, coz i dont have to take psychology anymore. remind me in the future years, not to take psychology as my elective subject in my degree because i certainly cant take the abstracttiveness [does this word really exist?] of this subject.

anyway, i'm feeling really happy today, because i feel like there so many chances and open spaces for me today. alhamdulillah. ^_^

what a lovely couple!

2009-02-03T00:01:00.004+11:00

last week, on the 29th of january, the family was blessed with another addition of a new member. my cousin got married. yes, and what a happy union it was. to syikin, eventhough i know you will not be reading this [its the thought that counts ^_^], i am more than proud to be your unofficial photographer for the day.

its 12.46a.m and i'm hungry

2009-01-23T03:46:00.003+11:00

yes, i am hungry. y? answer is simple, i didnt take my breakfast, i ate a chicken ham sandwich for lunch and a small portion of kuay teow the last 3 hour. no, i'm not trying to put the blame on anyone. for some unknown reasons to me..., my appetite have been going down the drain lately....loss of appetite...doesnt sound so good.....

i'm listening to 'we remain unknown' by estranged and i just finished watching city of angels. the movie is extremely slow but it gets a little exciting in the middle when he decided to become a human. but then, i thought i was wasting my time coz the ending was stupid. why in the world did the girl have to die???? and i didnt really get the idea why he was so happy swimming in the sea in front of the other angels....haish.....but yet again, 'wicker park' is an extremely good movie. download it, watch it! i totally recommend it to anyone who doesnt know what to do or what to watch.

i have the will to write this post because i dont really have anything to do right now and my class is starting from 2-4 tomorrow. so no worries of waking up late. i still have to finish reading up my legal studies though. the structure of the australian government....yes...now i'm officially more well read in australian law then my own country's law. heh, ironic...

FEELIN' IRONIC??

2009-01-12T21:00:00.001+11:00

IRONIC-alanis morissette

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

road trip - singapore

2008-12-25T11:05:00.008+11:00

sorry people, havent got the chance to update this blog since i got back from s'pore. why? my sister took her broadband with her and since she lives in johor...., my internet at home would most likely means going to the nearest cafe.... and since i'm such a lazy bum....it takes to much effort for me to go out of the house and spend my time at the cafe'. not exactly my idea of hanging out. and now that i'm in college. i have my mind on other things and yes, being the lazy bum that i am..,^_^, is another reason.

back to topic....., last month, i got the chance to step a foot in singapore for the first time in my life. those kuda kepang pictures are from a wedding that i attend there. my brother-in-law's cousin's wedding. heh, quite complicated. i agree. frankly speaking, i fell in love with the city because of its cleanliness. well i bet the kids there dont really have an idea of how a 'kulat' on the wall looks like unless they've been to malaysia, haha. yup, sad...but true. eventually, the cost of living there is much higher, i mean much much higher compared to in malaysia. but i guess you get what you pay for. its the best that any city council could give to any citizens in terms of maintainence. frankly speaking, singapore in my eyes... is a pure police state. everything is very...... authoritarian. and everything is...... manmade. yes, even the beach. [see picture below]. and very little culture remains in the city. mostly are modernized already but some old buildings like in the arab street are kept beautiful [i wish malacca can maintain the old buildings like that..seriously].

well, to be honest..., i dont really know what to say coz i've been in s'pore fo only 2 days, so i dont think that would qualify me to say further comments. neways, here are some pics i managd to snap during the trip :]

owh, and special thanks to kak mama and abg dul for being so kind and giving us a place to stay for the night. :]

"hot-hot chicken shit"

2008-12-09T23:06:00.006+11:00

hangat-hangat tahi ayam..., hahaha, i think i like the english version better. haha
how bout 'kereta sewa 3' [transporter 3]?? heheh

well, back to topic [hot hot chicken shit], refers to the fact that my blog is one week and 2 days dead after the latest post. iskisk.., edd's right, rot so fast!

so..., what's interesting in the past few days???? let me see...., hari raya haji, bkt antarabangsa, malaysian football team in AFF Suzuki Cup.... i'm sorry, the bkt antarabangsa thingy is a tragedy, not nice for me to se interesting as the word, inappropriate. people lost their loved ones in that particular case. my regards for them, whatmore for those who are forced to face he fact that they have to celebrate hari raya qurban in such ways...

to add in, the malaysian football team's performance in the AFF Suzuki Cup is another tragedy too. disastrous is the word that i want to use for this particular occasion. midfield is so pathetic, may i say 'kayu'?? owh, and the goalkeeper is not making the team any better. how in the world did he managed to let such a stupid and ugly goal ?????!!!!!! it was so stupid, that i think its the stupidest of the stupidest in football i've ever seen!!! [sorry for the choice of words, if u dont like it feel free to move on to the next blog. thank you] yes, the same goalkeeper who let the opponents won the penalty in pesta bola merdeka [or whatever the name of the cup is]. if i was the national coach, i would have thrown my boots at him the second the game finished. haish.., now that i'm feling a lil bit sympathy for the goalkeeper..., i must say, he's not the only reason why malaysia lost 3-2 to vietnam yesterday.

our very own striker, number 8, zakwan [have to put his name here, since he's not the only striker on field] is pathetic too. he should have been taken off pitch earlier in the game. his balls are useless!!! he got the chance, not once, but many times!!! and he blew it every single time!!! some of those chances are easy ones to score!!! but yet, he failed. hah, now i think maybe safee sali is the only one worthy in the national team. pity for the guy, at least drogba in ivory coast can make it to the world cup. maybe we need a lil bit more training than just some fancy adds on the billboards showing the players ripping off their skin. dear players! listen to this! we need 'harimau liar' not 'harimau jinak' in some fancy zoo!!

hmph, somehow.., i still hope that the malaysian team can learn a lesson from yesterday's game. [although the hard fact is that we never learn from anything, the past already did the same mistakes, and we are still doing the same mistakes now] but who knows, maybe a miracle can happen and a lil bit of magic can make the team use their heads other their energy to play better on pitch.

final words: selamat bermain-main di atas padang!!!

a new spirit

2008-11-30T00:00:00.002+11:00

i feel somehow responsible for this dead blog [now it is not anymore since i'm writing something on it now..] even though i dont really feel like continuing this blog a few months ago,maybe weeks, i cant remember, but then to think again, what the heck, i still like the idea that i can ramble about stuffs, silly stuffs, stupid stuffs, intelligent stuffs and whatever not on this particular page. so, i try to come up with this new plan, maybe i should try and put an entry at least once a week, every weekend maybe. now..., that is if i feel like doing so. coz anyone who knows me would know what a lazy bum i am and how undisciplined i am in doing routines. ^_^

yadayada...., so what is new going on..., apparently, not much, just that i took up jogging as new hobby. haha. well, i try to jog at least three times a week at the park. it all started coz i feel like i'm gaining weight during this long holiday, yes...., such a long holiday, almost two months until 5th jan next year. i f i continue being a lousy couch potato all this holiday, i might grow bigger on the sides [..i wish i can grow bigger upwards though.... sometimes, heheh]. yup, and cleo have been giving me the strength to hit the road every single day so that i can improve on my cardio. [i'm blessed that i found cleo at an earlier stage of life..haha] trust me, continuous training can give good and fast results if you really stay with routine. so far, i'm able to jog three rounds around the lake non-stop. 1 round of brisk walking then another 2 rounds of jogging non-stop. ^_^ am i proud? hell yes!!!! who wouldnt??!! ^_^ now i know why some people are hooked with jogging. it is quite addictive, yes, trust me! try it yourself and you will know! ^_^

then..., i went shopping the other day. owh, i just cant wait for the sales since the store that i went to was already having its own bargain items! heheh, typical.., i know! but the jeans are sooooo irresistible! well, i dont really want to buy it at first, then it looked so alluring [ i swear it says come to me if the jeans had a voice!], so i thought what the heck, trying it on in the fitting room wont hurt, and it did, it burned a whole in my pocket that night. but...., i did not regret it, the jeans was worth every single cent! plus, it is the first pair i bought from that particular label. after the shopping spree, i went to see madagascar 2. the story is .....cute. i cant say that its funny..., but in some scenes yes, but overall, it is cute. a very bad review,yes, so if anyone wants to find out, go and watch the movie yourself. [suitable for kids and people who dont want to watch serious stuffs]

hmm, what now..., yes, i'm hungry and i feel like catching a subway sandwich right now. god knows how addicted i am to their sandwiches! [it taste good and it'll make u look good too! trust me, i've been testing with the sandwiches, but u have to put the right ingredients and sauces in it, otherwise, the calories are no different!]

mantera beradu

2008-10-16T12:27:00.001+11:00

Gerakkan hati
hati gerakkan
pandanglah aku
akulah dia

Kulitku tebal ku bebal ingatku kebal
banyak berbual makan angin kembung perut mual
resah dan tidak senang hidup tak pernah lenang
ku schizo paranoia takut pecah tembelang

Pecah tembelang
peta dah hilang
bangau dah pulang
suara sumbang

Lidahku kaku tak selicin kuku
teman baikku buku
biniku pena tak pernah lena
aku suka mengintai pantang ditenung
berakhir pertelingkahan dalaman pasti belum

Ikut gerak hati pena melayang
dilihat dua layang pandang
taklah segarang takat meradang
tanya abang gedang apa barang
badan macam badang
main acap belakang parang

Hunuskan keris musuh ada pistol
tradisi kekalkan adaptasi harus betul
tujuh baris keramat tujuh garis penamat
baik berpada biar jahat asal selamat

Ramai saudaraku yang baik telah dipijak

Awan mendung yang berarak
bawa tangis bawa resah
rebah rindu yang terkumpul
semua jerat dan kalimat
semua janji yang terikat
lebur di sisimu

Yo!..Ijazah terbaik datangnya dari jalanan
dari pengalaman bercakar dan bersalaman
konflik motivasi cuba meditasi
positif yang benci jadi inspirasi pagi

Peduli interpretasi basi
pekakkan sebelah alang biar keduanya
muka cantik soalan bodoh yang ditanya
jadi melodi yang lebih hina dari zina

Lu bikin dosa ku bikin prosa
testosteron testarossa
cita-cita sosa KL KL Cosa Nostra
jalan berliku kuharung roller coaster
gah sentosa tiada penyesalan
luas pandangan jauh dah berjalan
tak sempurna masih ada kejanggalan
gagal merancang, merancang kegagalan

Awan mendung yang berarak
bawa tangis bawa resah
rebah rindu yang terkumpul
semua jerat dan kalimat
semua janji yang terikat
lebur di sisimu

Kucing bawa tidur rimau bawa ngigau
masuk tempat orang bawa otak bukan pisau

Naik bukit angkuh cakap ayah jangan risau
turun bukit pucat dengar tiga miau
kucing bawa tidur rimau bawa ngigau
masuk tempat orang bawa otak bukan pisau

Tolak pintu gua tiga kerat tenaga
kosong tak dijaga sampai datang tiga naga
ingat nak berlaga tapi takkan boleh menang
menang dengan otak tak mesti dengan pedang

Sebelum jadi naga ikan koi renang renang
kura-kura salah jawab pantun naik berang
panggil lima kawan atau biar pergi laju
risaukan perkara temeh kita takkan maju

Muka sama hijau hati siapa tahu
merah dah menyala pasti mati siapa mahu
gagap tiga kali bercakap benar saja
bulan terang ramai yang keluar buat kerja

Panjat pokok buluh cari tokong air terjun
naik sampai nampak dah terpegun turun
tiga ular ikut lompat atau paut
kalau lari mati jika belot maut

Awan mendung yang berarak
bawa tangis bawa resah
rebah rindu yang terkumpul
semua jerat dan kalimat
semua janji yang terikat
lebur di sisimu

Puisi hatimu
hatimu puisi
palu hatiku
palu hatiku

Kulit tak bersalin walau saling ganti baju
pandang sini pandang sinisku berbahasa baku
tata kata nahu himpun jadi satu
mantera beradu dengan irama dan lagu

Akhirnya sempurna...

Tentang duit dan ibadah

2008-08-01T12:48:00.002+10:00

5 rukun islam.
1-mengucap 2 kalimah syahadah.
[menggunakan lidah]
2-menunaikan solat 5 waktu
[pakaian yg elok, guna duit,
takdek baju yg tumbuh dr pohon]
3-menunaikan fardhu puasa di bulan
ramadhan
[berpuasa tak perlu makan, nak
berbuka bagaimana pula? nabi
s.a.w kate paling afdhal makan
kurma. kurma boleh dapat free
ke? guna duit]
4-menunaikan zakat
[orang yg mcm mana yg boleh
tunaikan zakat? mesti yg cukup
hartanya. kalau diri sendiri tak
boleh tanggung, macam mana nak
tolong org lain?]
5-menunaikan haji
[sekarang bukan zaman mukjizat,
bukan boleh naik tikar terbang
nak pegi Makkah n Madinah. kalo
dah pedi, takkan nak merempat
kat tepi jalan, nak harapkan
sedekah orang nak isi perut. mcm
mana nak tunaikan ibadah ni?
guna duit.]

-Allah beri akal dan anggota yg sihat supaya kita boleh kerja dan ibadah. kerja untuk kumpul duit byk, duit yg byk boleh digunakan untuk ibadah. Tuhan tak pernah suruh kita jadik papa kedana. Kita buta bila hati kita buta.

P.S : this was a lesson taught to me by my father. Actually, i remembered about this lesson when i came across a posting from another blog. The posting got something to do with why muslims should find money and be rich people to help others, so i wrote the comments above on that particular post. To the owner of that blog, i'm sorry for copying my comment on your article to my blog, because i feel obligated to spread this knowledge to others. thanks. :]